glecy

2009-09-07T14:17:00.000+08:00

MOVED

2009-09-07T14:11:00.002+08:00

Moved to CLICK HERE

To view my older posts, just click on the archives on the sidebar :)

Will miss my blogger :)

Lagging

2009-07-23T09:27:00.003+08:00

I wanna quit smoking. I really do. I hate that it makes me feel all sorts of unusual things. Like the feeling of comfort on a chair outside 711 MOA, or my feet feeling like a vegetable 5mins before 11:30am, and when i feel that warm-cold crisp air from that bay, it makes me say "this is the last time. i swear." with my right hand in position to make it look so genuine, i'd believe it. (again)

To be or not to be, that's always been the question.

***Smoking, is working against me.
Smoking, wants to bring me down...
....Just keep me where the light is...*****

Lalalalala.. <3

2009-07-02T00:33:00.001+08:00

Suddenly, i didn't knew anybody, and nobody knew me. Too bleak.
Where's that fast-forward button when you need it??

lalala

2009-06-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

i'm sooo not in the mood for anything, or for anyone. ay naku, i know, when i'm sober, i know i would hate this... "phase". pero, wtf, i can't function well. i even feel so annoyed when someone's texting me, well, not everybody. i don't make any sense now do i? arrgh. i hate it.

right now, i'm in the mood for ignoring people.
it's like i'm looking for my own world right now, cos i admit, i am too freaking disoriented with pretty much everything to function normally. and i hate it.

times like this makes me wish for that escape button. if only.

2009-06-26T17:32:00.004+08:00

we listened to the music of life. Track 4. it's something i won't forget. cos you know, there was this dream, i was walking through the pebble lane and at the end is the church. as i entered the church, everybody's just looking at me, expecting me to deliver the best speech, cos i know a lot more about you than anybody else in the world. but as i was led to the platform, i started to cry, and not a single word came out of my mouth. so i ran... and cried... and cried... The story you told me about Track 4 is not really that different from this dream. When you asked me, i couldn't answer the question. but now, i know. i'll know what to tell everybody. i'll know what speech i should deliver in that platform. The only problem is, for me to deliver it, you'll have to be gone. That's something I can't ever live with.

So i played Track 4, though not in the piano, but my heart is touching every key, every note in this song. It touched my heart in every way, that now the song became my heart. And everytime i hear it playing, it's crying for me. My life is in play. and it needs a melody. You gave me that melody... now it's playing and crying for me. Screaming why does it have to happen? why do you have to be gone. why do you have to leave me alone? Then i woke up with the final sound of pain. It was just a song...

Oh gosh. I can't continue this it's too dark. breathe please breathe.

Men

2009-05-26T15:31:00.001+08:00

Men are like....

1. Men are like Laxatives . They irritate the crap out of you.
2 Men are like. Bananas . The older they get, the less firm they are.

3. Men are like Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.

4. Men are like Blenders You need One, but you're not quite sure why.

5. Men are like Chocolate Bars .. Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.

6. Men are like Commercials . You can't believe a word they say.

7. Men are like Department Stores ... Their clothes are always 1/2 off!

8. Men are like .. Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.

9. Men are like .. Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion.

10. Men are like Lava Lamps . Fun to look at, but not very bright.

11. Men are like Parking Spots All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

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The Man Rules
At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down

Finally , the guys' side of the story.
( I must admit, it's pretty good.)
We always hear " the Rules "
From the female side.

Now here are the rules from the male side.

These are our rules!
Please note.. these are all numbered "1 "
ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports It's like the full moon
or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials. .

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have noidea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched.
We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but i t is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine.... Really .

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball
or golf.

1.... You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;

But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

2009-05-23T17:10:00.002+08:00

JOKE TIME!! :D

$40,000 FUNERAL.

Jim died.

His will provided $40,000 for an elaborate funeral.

As the last guests departed the affair, his wife Sharon turned to her oldest and dearest friend. 'Well, I'm sure Jim would be pleased,' she said.

'I'm sure you're right,' replied Brenda, who lowered her voice and leaned in close. 'How much did this really cost?'

'All of it,' said Sharon . 'Forty thousand.'

'No!' Brenda exclaimed. 'I mean, it was very nice, but $40,000?'

Sharon answered, 'The funeral was $6,500. I donated $500 to church. The whiskey, wine and snacks were another $500. The rest went for the Memorial Stone.'

Brenda computed quickly. '$32,500 for a Memorial Stone? How big is it?'

===============================================

But.... what about the smell?

A man and his wife were driving home one very cold night when the wife asks her husband to stop the car.
There was a baby skunk lying at the side of the road, and she got out to see if it was still alive.
It was, and she said to her husband, "It's nearly frozen to death.
Can we take it with us, get it warm, and let it go in the morning?" He says, "O.K.,
Get in the car with it."
"Where shall I put it to get it warm?"
He says, "Put it in between your legs. It's nice and warm there.
"But what about the smell?"
"Just hold its nose." He Replied.
The man is expected to recover, but the skunk she used to beat him with died at the scene.

2009-05-12T14:30:00.000+08:00

WHY MEN ARE NEVER DEPRESSED:

Men Are Just Happier People -- What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth.. The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100. People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. One mood all the ! time.

Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness. If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.

Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough. You almost never have strap problems in public. You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your face stays its original color. The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades. You only have to shave your face and neck.

You can play with toys all your life. One wallet and one pair of shoes -- one color for all seasons. You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look. You can 'do' your nails with a pocket knife. You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.

You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.

No wonder men are happier.

Send this to the women who can handle it
and to the men who will enjoy reading it

2009-04-22T19:02:00.002+08:00

i've always wondered what will happen after 20 years, and after that, and after that. sigh. something inside me feels so excited to get there. somehow, i want to feel that stability that 40 yr olds have, i want a life where everything is certain, where you have goals, ends to meet, jobs to do, tasks to accomplish. not like now, you can or cannot do things, that still is your choice, i mean, middle-aged people they just have that fuel that keeps them doing what they do. (at least most of them)

i've also always wondered why older people would always tell us "do everything while you're still young" or "if only i could go back" with that tone that spells too much regret. it's as if to them, aging equals dying. it's all so wrong. i look at old people with so much admiration, as if they're holding a trophy. whether the person is proud or ashamed of himself it doesn't matter, i'd still admire them.

sorry. just can't wait. hay... :)

2009-04-13T11:42:00.002+08:00

There's just a lot. It's too cloudy and dark, i can't understand, there's too many of them. They make me wanna close my eyes, look up, and wait-- til the rain touches my skin. I just love the feeling, but its too much, the feeling is just overwhelming, and i cant let it win.

I wanna do things, but they could only satisfy my mind cos i cant pull them out of my head and make it share my world, no, i still have to draw a line between my head and reality. otherwise, im better off dead.

i made a list of the things that crossed my head, just a thought though, dont worry, i can never do them, not in a million years.

1. i wanna shave all of my hair off and be bald.

2. i wanna be naked in my own house for a year.

3. i wanna burn down nice houses, just cause.

4. i wanna travel the world.

5. i wanna live in outer space.

6. i wanna jump off the highest building.

7. i wanna do a miracle.

8. i wanna sleep on an open field.

9. i wanna sleep for a year.

10.i wanna get married tomorrow.

11.i wanna invent a time machine.

12.i wanna live 500 years from now.

one word : DELUSIONAL.

Cheating

2009-03-23T20:57:00.003+08:00

Cheating

Since I can't forgive what happened, which i'm pretty sure would happen again, I think i'll need to clear what cheating really means, since he said that he DIDN'T cheat and i really can't get over it, i'm still denying to myself (attested by fee) the fact that what he did really is considered as cheating. Well, the truth is i could've forgotten everything if not for his asshole-ness. I could've let go, if i saw changes. pero hindi eh. He still curses as in walang galang, you'll think he's yelling to his worst enemy and he's always irrate and easily annoyed. I mean, WHAT THE FUCK???? And now, i bet he's waiting for me to say sorry. Sinuswerte ka? I've done my part in this relationship, i have wasted a lot of my time, energy and everything just to patch things up. Pero WALA. You don't treat me right anymore. And after all that, after all the bad things you've done, ikaw pa may gana mag-inarte ng ganyan??? What the hell is wrong with you? ARRGHH!!

I AM FUCKING TIRED. I AM FED UP.

On the other hand, i'm not yet closing my door. Since I know that I am willing to forgive you, all you have to do is say sorry. Come to me and say sorry. That's all. You don't need to give flowers or anything (kahit na matagal ko na hinihintay mabigyan nun) Just show me that you're willing to lower your pride and say sorry. If you do that, I'll know that you really love me.

BUT TILL THEN... I think I'll just stay alone muna, and be free. Cos I need to rest. Bugbog na puso ko. Abused.

Well anyway, here goes.

CHEATING defined.

With regard to human relationships, couples tend to expect sexual monogamy of each other. If so, then cheating commonly refers to forms of infidelity, particularly adultery. However, there are other divisions of infidelity, which may be emotional. Cheating by thinking of, touching and talking with someone you are attracted to may be equally damaging to one of the parties. Emotional cheating may be correlated to that of emotional abuse, which to date is treated as seriously in a court of law as physical cheating. With the expansion of understanding of other cultures, there is a wide spectrum of what cheating means. When in a committed relationship, the definition of cheating is based on both parties opinions and both parties may redefine their understanding to match the party at an either lower or higher extreme of this definition. Some couples simply believe that cheating constitutes doing anything, whether verbal or physical, that one would not do in front of their significant other. Such examples would include: expressing attraction to another person, electronic communications, kissing, making out, and sexual relations.

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cheating

WHAT COUNTS AS CHEATING?

When a husband or wife, boyfriend or girlfriend, violates one’s expectations about what is appropriate, people feel betrayed. Keep in mind that relationships are not based on logic, but they are influenced by our emotions.

-Flirt with others
-Engage in sexual talk with someone else
-Exchange personal e-mails or text messages
-Deny being married or in a relationship
-Spend time with specific individuals
-Engage in specific types of contact
–Sleeping in the same bed with another person
-Purchase intimate gifts and presents for others
-Chat online with someone else (online affairs)
-Have sexual contact with someone else (physical infidelity)
-Become emotionally involved with someone else (emotional infidelity)
-Develop a crush or feelings for another individual
-Share their most private thoughts and feelings with someone else
-Become best friends with someone of the opposite sex

source: http://www.truthaboutdeception.com/what_counts_as_cheating?/public/what_counts_as_cheating?.html

**SO, in other words, YOU ARE FUCKING GUILTY.

Love is.

2009-03-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

They say its a river that circles the earth, a beam of light shining at the edge of the universe. Love conquers all and changes everything.

Love breaks your heart, it takes no less than everything.
Love makes it hard, and it fades away so easily.

Love breaks the chains
Love aches for every one of us
Love takes the tears and the pain
And then turns it into the beauty that remains

BUT IT FADES AWAY SO EASILY...

**IT'S OVER**

ARE YOU SMARTER THAN A FIRST GRADER??? HAHAHAHAHA!!!

2009-02-20T02:01:00.000+08:00

A first-grade teacher was having trouble with one of her students.

The teacher asked the boy, "What is your problem?"
The boy answered, "I'm too smart for the first grade. My sister is in the third grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the third grade too!"

The teacher had enough. She took the boy to the principal's office. While the boy waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told the teacher he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the first grade and behave.
She agreed.

The boy was brought in and the conditions were explainedto him and he agreed to take the test.
Principal: What is 3 x 3?"
Boy: 9.
Principal: What is 6 x 6?
Boy: 36.

And so it went with every question the principal thought a third-grade should know. The principal looks at the teacher and tells her, "I think this boy can go to the third grade."
The teacher says to the principal, "I have some of my own questions. Can I ask him?"
The principal and the boy both agreed.

The teacher asks, "What does a cow have four of that I have only two of?"
Boy: after a moment, Legs
Teacher: What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?
Boy: Pockets.
Teacher: What starts with a *C* and ends with a *T*, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thin whitish liquid?
Boy: Coconut.

Teacher: What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft and sticky? The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, the Boy was taking charge.
Boy: Bubblegum.
Teacher: What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs?
The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer...
Boy: Shake hands.

Teacher: Now I will ask some "Who am I" sort of questions, okay?
Boy: Yep.
Teacher: You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do.
Boy: Tent
Teacher: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with me when you're bored. The best man always has me first. The principal was looking restless, a bit tense.
Boy: Wedding Ring.
Teacher: I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.
Boy: Nose.
Teacher: I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver.
Boy: Arrow.
Teacher: What word starts with an 'F' and ends in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?
Boy: Firetruck.
Teacher: What is it that all men have one of, it's longer on some men than on others, the pope doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after they're married?
Boy: Surname.

Teacher: What part of the man has no bone but has muscles, has lots of veins, likes pumping, and is responsible for making love?
Boy: Heart.

The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher:
SEND THIS BOY TO COLLEGE! I GOT THE LAST TEN QUESTIONS WRONG MYSELF!!!

Just Cause

2009-02-07T04:59:00.001+08:00

I just feel like doing something today for the sake of productivity. i feel like stagnant water waiting for dengue mosquitos to lay their eggs on me. haha. boo. i'm too lazy (or was). over the past few months i have let my depression take over me. it was a very nasty place to be in. and lurking into all of the dark thoughts and emotions made me feel so limited and deprived. i dunno, i just feel like a prisoner of my own thoughts, of my useless pathetic emotions. and now, my stupid useless brain demands changes. it's your fault in the first place, you're not doing your job very well.

Oh what the heck.

There's this something about my past that haunts me. (lately) it's starting to creep me out. i hate it when i am being reminded of it, especially when the one who reminds you is the one you love the most. sigh.

There's also this thing about my future that haunts me more. I really hate talking about it. I just hate the word "plan", there's nothing so exciting about it. in the end you'll always find that it only means disappointment.

Sabaw. sobrang sabaw ng utak ko.

Oh well, no one reads the stupid blog anyway. :)

Wallpaper

2009-01-30T15:47:00.000+08:00

Our new desktop wallpaper =D

Certainly uncertain yet uncertainly certain...

2009-01-24T07:09:00.000+08:00

How can someone even promise forever? Someone like him who’s not even sure of himself? It’s like writing a masterpiece into thin air… like exploring the heavens without wings… like swimming on the deepest ocean on a task of reaching the other end… it is a tragedy. Combining two words that equals uncertainty… promise… forever… that is an epic written for fools. But love? They say the two words go with it… how exactly? I have experienced love, consumed it to the fullest, and yet, never found them. How can they even be related? This I can’t understand. People are fools, dreamers of neverland. They dream of stupidity, of humiliation, of perversity… I once was a fool too… I understand where the foolishness comes from. It’s like walking on boiling gold. You get high, fascinated by that shiny overrated piece of metal and jumped on it, for a like a fool, you’d always get what you want. And like a lover, you’d always fall intentionally with nothing else to feel but the intensity… intensity of what exactly? Even I don’t know the answer… you just know on that moment, that it’s right, it’s perfect… so intense, you’d say the words you yourself are not certain about… the great feeling of love, giving an outburst of emotions, making people say they lived life… they have lived forever on that moment… I love you, you’ll whisper… I’m here for you forever… and you believe.. oh yes, we are all victims and suspects here…

Then a time will come when your life gets so perfect. You get bored of living forever, of being immortal. So you find imperfections for your life. You deal with lovers, you drink, you cheat, you lie… and you feel sane again, you feel like you’re back on the ground… and the promise, the forever that you yourself thought would never break have shattered into a million pieces. You get blamed, you get hurt, get hurt even more cos you have hurt the one you love… and you feel sorry… you regret everything because you have pulled her back to earth with you… and you never wanted that, for you want your star floating into the heavens… glowing with so much joy… but you blew it… for she no longer wish the glow… she became happy in the darkness… and she will remain in the darkness forever… she would lurk in it till she finds a promise where forever is certain… death.

STUPID QUESTIONS.

2009-01-20T15:02:00.000+08:00

If you have sex with a prostitute against her will, is it considered rape or shoplifting?

Can you cry under water?

How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?

Why do you have to 'put your two cents in'... but it's only a 'penny for your thoughts'? Where's that extra penny going to?

Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?

Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

What disease did cured ham actually have?

How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?

Why is it that people say they 'slept like a baby' when babies wake up like every two hours?

If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?

Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?

Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?

Why do doctors leave the room while you change?
They're going to see you naked anyway.

Why is 'bra' singular and 'panties' plural?

Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?

If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?

If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?

Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours?
They're both dogs!

If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?

If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?

If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?

Why did you just try singing the two songs above?

Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?

Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?

Why, Why, Why

Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting dead?

Why do banks charge a fee on 'insufficient funds' when they know there is not enough money?

Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?

Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection?

Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?

Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?

Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?

Whose idea was it to put an 'S' in the word 'lisp'?

If people evolved from apes,
why are there still apes?

Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?

Is there ever a day that mattresses
are not on sale?

Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?

Why do people keep running over a string a dozen times with their vacuum cleaner, then reach down, pick it up, examine it, then put it down to give the vacuum one more chance?

Why is it that no plastic bag will open from the end on your first try?

How do those dead bugs get into those enclosed light fixtures?

When we are in the supermarket and someone rams our ankle with a shopping cart then apologizes for doing so, why do we say, 'It's all right?' Well, it isn't all right, so why don't we say, 'That really hurt, why don't you watch where you're going?'

Why is it that whenever you attempt to catch something that's falling off the table you always manage to knock something else over?

In winter why do we try to keep the house as warm as it was in summer when we complained about the heat?

How come you never hear father-in-law jokes?

And my FAVORITE......
The statistics on sanity is that one out of every four persons are suffering from some sort of mental illness. Think of your three best friends -- if they're okay, then it's you.

HAHAHAHA! I Say NVM! =D

2009-01-01T15:46:00.000+08:00

GIRLS.. GROW UP! STOP POSTING THESE THINGS NA. IT'S REALLY IRRITATING. HAHA. OKAY. SORRY, MIND MY OWN BUSINESS. =D

A normal guy would say: "I LOVE YOU BABY!"
Edward Cullen would say: "YOU ARE MY LIFE NOW."

A normal guy would say: "I THINK I AM FALLING FOR YOU."
Edward Cullen would say: "THE LION FELL IN LOVE WITH THE LAMB."

A normal guy would say: "YOUR HAIR LOOKS LIKE A HAYSTACK; GO BRUSH IT!"
Edward Cullen would say: "YOUR HAIR LOOKS LIKE A HAYSTACK, BUT I LIKE IT."

A normal guy would pick a random song from a random artist and dedicate it to you.
Edward cullen would sing you a song he wrote for you while playing the piano.

If you die, a normal guy would find another.
If you die, Edward would kill himself cause life without you isn’t worth living.

"Well, I wasn't going to live without you.." He rolled his eyes as if that fact were childishly obvious. "..but I wasn't sure how to do it. I knew Emmet and Jasper would never help so I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi."

As you leave the house, a normal guy would say: "BYE, SEE YA!"
As you leave the house Edward Cullen would say: "COME BACK TO ME, LOVE."

He smiled my favorite smile. "Hurry back to me."
"Always."

As you come back to the house, a normal guy would be watching TV and wouldn’t even notice.
As you come back to the house, Edward Cullen would be welcoming you by playing the piano with a song just for you.

"I heard the music before I was out of the car. Edward hadn't touched his piano since the night Alice left. Now, as I shut the door, I heard the song morph through a bridge and change into my lulluby. Edward was welcoming me home."

A normal guy would wait for you to make him breakfast.
Edward Cullen would make you breakfast everyday.

While you are both out for dinner, a normal guy wouldn’t keep his eyes off the sexy waitress.
Edward Cullen wouldn’t even notice the waitress was a female.

A normal guy, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and one hand on the radio.
Edward Cullen, while driving, would keep one hand on the wheel and the other attached to yours.

While far apart in different places, a normal guy would say: "I MISS YOU."
While far apart in different places, Edward Cullen would say: "IT'S LIKE YOU'VE TAKEN HALF MYSELF WITH YOU."

A normal guy wouldn’t care or notice if you had nightmares.
Edward Cullen would sing until your nightmares went away."DO YOU WANT ME TO SING TO YOU? I'LL SING ALL NIGHT IF IT WILL KEEP THE BAD DREAMS AWAY."

A normal guy buys you flowers and chocolates.
Edward Cullen buys you a car.

A normal guy does it with everyone.
Edward Cullen only does it with one

8 DAYS...

2008-12-28T14:32:00.000+08:00

Nobody said it was easy...
Nobody said it would be so hard...
Take us back to the start...

You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart

NOBODY SAID IT WAS EASY...
IT'S SUCH A SHAME FOR US TO PART...

Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
Coming back as we are

NOBODY SAID IT WAS EASY...
NOBODY SAID IT WOULD BE SO HARD...

LET'S GO BACK TO THE START.

I RUSH BACK TO THE START...

Stupid Mayor Pangandanan beats up Father and Son

2008-12-28T05:16:00.000+08:00

Valley Golf and Country Club
Don Celso S. Tuazon Avenue Antipolo City 1870

(MUKHA NAMANG SAFE NOH..)

HONORABLE DAR SECRETARY NASSER PANGANDAMANHONORABLE MAYOR NASSER PANGANDAMAN JR.

SADLY, THIS IS THE KIND OF POLITICIANS WE HAVE. THIS IS THE FIRST HAND ACCOUNT OF BAMBEE DE LA PAZ. ALL SHE COULD DO IS WATCH HER FATHER AND BROTHER GET BEATEN UP BY MAYOR NASSER PANGANDAMAN JR. AND HIS BODY GUARDS.

THIS IS THE LINK TO BAMBEE'S BLOG:
http://vicissitude-decidido.blogspot.com/2008/12/world-is-fucked-up.html

THE WORLD HAS GONE CRAZY

So, I just had the worst day of my life.

At around 1:30 PM today, at Valley Golf and Country Club, Antipolo City, Mayor Nasser Pangandaman, Jr., Mayor of Masiu City, Lanao del Sur, his father, Secretary Nasser Pangandaman of the Department of Agrarian Reform, and company, beat my defenseless 56-year-old dad and my 14-year-old brother to a pulp because of some stupid misunderstanding on the golf course.

This is a golf course. I have been a golfer all my life, and I have never seen anything like this. NOTHING. This is hard to comprehend. And it happened to my own father and my own brother too. Right in front of my eyes.

My brother and I were playing golf at the South Course of Valley. We were on the 3rd hole, and we see two golf carts going past us, overtaking our flight, and setting up to tee off on the next hole. My dad goes up to them and asks them why they would do that, why they would overtake us without even asking for our permission. Golf etiquette 101. One of the guys says that they're with the flight in front of us. (So what? That doesn't give them the right to just pass us WITHOUT asking.) So, we go to the 5th hole. The flight behind us catches up with us, and asks us what caused the hold up. We said that this flight just slipped in front of our flight. So we complained to the marshall. We play the 5th hole and walk towards the next hole, where there is a teehouse, and both the flights in front of us were there, talking with the marshall. The mayor of Masiu City, Lanao del Sur talks with my dad. Things get heated up. Voices were raised. But never, in my wildest dreams, did I ever imagine that someone would pull out a punch. Apparently not. He attacks my father. His flightmates, maybe 2 or 3 of them, rush to his aid and beat up my father. My 56-year-old father. My younger brother and I could not just watch. We rushed to break the fight. My younger brother pleads to the mayor to please stop it. To not hurt my dad. To just stop. His words still ring through my head..."Sorry na po, sorry na po...tama na...tama na po..." With his hands in front of his chest in a praying position. PLEADING. The mayor socks him in the face. My brother defended himself. My dad is still on the ground getting clobbered. My brother is the same way. I try to stop the fight, but all I can do is stop one person. There were 4 or 5 of them attacking now.

Someone breaks up the fight. I thought it was all over. The mayor shouts to his caddy: "Hindi nila kami kilala! Sabihin mo nga sa kanila kung sino ako!" And believe me, I had no idea who this person was. But now I know. He's the person who, with 4 other men, beat up my 56-year-old father and my 14-year-old brother. He's the person who sacks a pleading 14-year-old kid in the face. He's a person who, I am sure, is gonna rot in hell.

I lash out, but my dad held me back. I was screaming my lungs out, shouting to this mayor, telling him about what he had done. I said: "Nakakahiya kayo. Singkwenta'y sais anyos ang tatay ko. And kapatid ko kakatorse anyos. Anong ilalaban nila sayo?"

The mayor looks at my brother, point to his face, and says, "Tatandaan kita!" And he tells me that my brother has a bad attitude and that I need to watch him. WHAT THE HELL?! So, my brother's bad for defending his father?!

We leave. We walk to the clubhouse to file a complaint. My brother asks for a doctor. My dad could barely walk. Their group comes to the clubhouse, sees my brother. Once again my brother pleads, says sorry, and is crying. He was CRYING, for crissakes. But no. The relentless mayor still punches him in the face, and then sees my dad and goes after my dad again. Him and his friend pull my dad to the ground, pulls at his feet, and steps on him like he's dirt. I run to him and try to hold him back, holding him back by his shirt, while this other guy and this girl tries to stop me. She tells me to just stop it. I scream in her face "they're beating my father up and you want me to stop?!" I pull at his shirt--I don't let go. All I can see was my dad being trampled on. I didn't even see my brother getting beat up.

People pull them away. I get my dad, and I saw my brother. His right ear was bleeding. I freaked out. I told the receptionists to bring my brother to the clinic. I pull my dad away. People were separating us.

My mom and my older brother come. I tell her Bino's right ear is bleeding. They both look like they could kill. My dad holds my brother off, I hold off my mom. When I finally got my mom under control, my older brother gets away and I hold him off. Two of the mayor's bodyguards pull out guns. I embraced my brother from the back, just holding him back, crying. The receptionists came to us, crying, hugging me, my dad, and my mom, whispering to us to just leave. "Maam, umalis na po kayo, may mga baril sila...Maam...umalis na po kayo please..."

I am pretty sure the Secretary of DAR did not take part in the fight, but he just watched all this happen. He watched two of his sons, as we figured out, the other guy was his son, too, beat up my father and my 14-year-old brother. He didn't do anything to stop it. And this person is what now? A cabinet member. A politician.

Sounds like something out of a movie, doesn't it? But this is what happened. TODAY. The day after Christmas. To my family. And all I ask for is JUSTICE. The people at Valley Golf did not seem to want to help us. None of the security guards even tried to stop the fight. Right in the clubhouse. I came back after the fight was over and talked to the receptionists. They say they did not see anything. The general manager of Valley Golf would not give us the names of the men who made my brother's ear bleed. It took him an hour. Maybe even more than that. He seemed to not want to help us. Because, we were against the SECRETARY OF THE DEPARTMENT OF AGRARIAN REFORM and the MAYOR OF MASIU CITY, LANAO DEL SUR. They were all scared.

The world has gone crazy. Two politicians beat up a defenseless 56-year-old father and his 14-year-old son. At a golf course. I swear to God, I thought golfers were decent people. You would think politicians were decent people. I guess not. I guess they gang up on 56-year-old men and beat up pleading 14-year-old kids.

Please pray for my dad, my brother and for my whole family. Please pray that we get JUSTICE. Oh God, please, give these people what they deserve.

FROM FILIPINO VOICES: (http://www.filipinovoices.com/impunity-and-golf)
The Philippine State needs civilizing really fast. It is currently run by barbarians, murderers and thieves who cannot even follow simple golf etiquette. What more the moral code of the country as embodied by our laws?

LINKS TO RELATED ARTICLES:
BAMBEE'S BLOG

GMA NEWS

ABS CBN NEWS

FILIPINA MOM BLOGGER

BLOGGER-THE WORLD HAS ALWAYS BEEN CRAZY

****REPOST. SPREAD THE WORD. LET JUSTICE BE SERVED. WHO ARE YOU GOING TO BELIEVE? THIS 18 YEAR OLD KID OR THAT FUCKING POLITICIAN?

FACTS: Guys and Gals..

2008-12-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA!! How i wish the guy part's true...

Girl Facts--

when a girl is mean to you after a break-up

she wants you back but she is too

scared she'll get hurt and knows

you're gone forever!

when you catch a girl glancing at you,

she wants you to look back

and smile

When a girl bumps into your arm,

while walking with you

she wants

you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug

she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart

she still feels it when

you run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,

millions of things are running through her

mind..

When a girl is not arguing,

she is thinking deeply,,

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of

questions,

she is wondering how long you will be

around

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a

few seconds,

SHE IS NOT FINE AT ALL

When a girl stares at you,

she is wondering why you are playing games

When a girl lays her head on your chest,

she is wishing for you to be hers forever

When a girl says she can't live

without you,

she has made up her mind that you are

her future

When a girl says, "I miss you,"

no one in this world can miss you more

than that

Guy Facts---

When a guy calls you,

he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,

He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,

He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few

minutes

he means it

When a guy stares at you,

he wishes you would care about him and

wonders if you do

When your laying your head on a guy's

chest,

he has the world

When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday,

he is in love

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,

he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you,

he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"

he misses you more than you could have

ever missed him or anything else

BITCH

2008-12-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

CHAT WITH THE BITCH PART 2

glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 2:36:19 PM): let's go out pagdating ni jason...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 2:36:33 PM): i wanna talk to him infront of you. ok lang??
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 2:36:39 PM): tetext kita
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 5:49:57 PM): sure... sige... can i get your number?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 5:50:19 PM): 09274605423
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 5:50:50 PM): okay
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 5:50:58 PM): got it... you know my number na ba?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 5:51:06 PM): k.. not sure/.//
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 5:51:25 PM): 09275041531
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 5:51:30 PM): k.
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 5:51:37 PM): okay...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 5:51:39 PM): thanks.. see you soon
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 5:51:45 PM): no prob...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 5:52:16 PM): thanks din for being honest... hope ganyan parin when the 3 of us talks na..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 5:52:18 PM):
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 5:52:31 PM): okay...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:03:02 PM): btw, i talked about it with my boyfriend, sabi niya you guys should settle it muna dahil ayaw niya muna makelam, but if we really have to talk, he said he wants to go with me, is that fine?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:03:46 PM): haha. kayo bahala. i won't hurt you.. i just wanna know the truth...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:04:03 PM): it's good that he's there na rin to let him know things he should
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:04:25 PM): yup... okay... pero you guys should settle it muna
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:04:38 PM): its not that youll hurt me
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:04:45 PM): he knows naman eveything
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:04:50 PM): he just wants to be there lang
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:05:09 PM): i'm through talking... kasi i need to clear the flirting thing
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:05:28 PM): you know what... you should bring him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:05:34 PM): what do you mean?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:05:45 PM): i need to know the truth
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:06:04 PM): you can talk naman straight to the point
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:06:15 PM): i dont like it paligoy ligoy din
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:06:46 PM): hindi ako nagpapaligoy ligoy
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:06:58 PM): i'm telling you nga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:07:12 PM): kasi i dont get it, what youre trying to say
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:07:30 PM): you will when we talk ok?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:07:39 PM): for now, hayaan na natin yun
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:07:47 PM): okay
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:15:04 PM): ngsend ako ng message kay jay... i dont know what he told you, pero as much as possible i dont want anything to do with this...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:15:25 PM): kelan ka nagsend? sa ym?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:15:34 PM): PERO DEAR
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:15:40 PM): yup
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:16:02 PM): YOU HAVE EVERYTHING TO DO WITH THIS
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:16:14 PM): why cant you tell me now di ba?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:16:18 PM): kanina sabi mo wala
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:16:21 PM): then now meron
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:16:34 PM): di ko siya kinakausap
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:16:40 PM): di ko pinapansin
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:16:53 PM): i dont know whats wrong with you guys
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:16:57 PM): but you're entertaining him before di ba?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:17:06 PM): i don't know either
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:17:10 PM): mas clueless ako
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:17:10 PM): you dont understand
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:17:20 PM): i clearly understand...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:17:26 PM): kung naguusap kami
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:17:44 PM): its because siya tumatawag
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:17:50 PM): you can ask him if you want
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:17:51 PM): i realized a lot of things after we talked
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:17:59 PM): I KNOW
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:18:11 PM): and when naguusap kami
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:18:17 PM): its not flirting thing
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:18:20 PM): haha
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:18:26 PM): believe me, IT IS
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:18:31 PM): kinakausap din niya ako about you
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:18:42 PM): I KNOW
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:18:49 PM): i dont want to bring up yung sinasabi niya
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:18:55 PM): TELL ME
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:18:57 PM): ano pa ba gusto mo sabihin?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:19:03 PM): I NEED TO KNOW]
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:19:17 PM): the way i see now, gless the more i cant tell you
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:19:22 PM): you're talking where? landline di ba?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:19:23 PM): kasi truth hurts gless
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:19:33 PM): nope
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:19:36 PM): IM ALREADY HURTIN
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:19:40 PM): TELL ME
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:19:41 PM): he calls me through cellphone
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:19:59 PM): I HAVE TO KNOW
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:20:03 PM): parang you think im the person whos wrong here
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:20:12 PM): you think about the flirting thing
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:20:17 PM): im not saying you're wrong
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:20:35 PM): i'm saying you are the issue
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:20:36 PM): ayoko sakin manggaling dahil di ako kasali janb
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:20:36 PM): jan
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:20:42 PM): kaya nga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:20:47 PM): thats the point
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:20:47 PM): kasali ka nga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:20:53 PM): nililinaw ko sarili ko
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:20:57 PM): kaya nga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:20:57 PM): what do you want to know?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:21:10 PM): if i flirted with him?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:21:16 PM): sinasabi mo things you can't tell
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:21:30 PM): you dont know the whole story
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:21:37 PM): i dont want to tell
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:21:42 PM): i want jay to tell things
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:21:46 PM): pero sobra na
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:21:50 PM): if you really wanna clear your name, you will tell the story
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:21:52 PM): its like ako naiipit
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:22:12 PM): before, inaasar siya ng mga classmates ko sakin
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:22:23 PM): na what?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:22:26 PM): i didnt know him before kasi bago lang ako sa school
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:22:39 PM): at the same time siya kababalik lang
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:22:54 PM): panong inaasar
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:22:56 PM): im an irregular student, kaya di ko lagi silang nakakasama
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:23:22 PM): until one day pagpasok ko, inaasar siya sakin like "uy, jay o, si hannah"
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:23:32 PM): thats how i knew
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:23:34 PM): him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:23:44 PM): i didnt know what was going on
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:24:03 PM): at first i didnt know him malamang i didnt know na may gf siya
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:24:07 PM): teka, sinong classmate muna nangaasar
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:24:11 PM): but i didnt flirt with him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:24:34 PM): i dont want to tell the whole detail, let jay tell everything, like what i said, ayoko makelam
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:24:41 PM): its about you guys
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:24:45 PM): its not about me anymore
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:24:48 PM): TELL ME NOW!
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:24:53 PM): ayoko may iba pang madamay
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:25:08 PM): okay?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:25:14 PM): may i continue?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:25:16 PM): SO I DON'T HAVE TO TALK TO YOU IN PERSON NA
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:25:34 PM): TELL ME PLEASE
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:26:00 PM): please do respect my decision, im telling you everything as clear as possible
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:26:10 PM): honestly i dont want to ruin your relationship
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:26:15 PM): but its getting out of hand
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:26:42 PM): di ko maexplain side ko cuz jay doesnt even want me to talk to you
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:26:43 PM): sige na.. you have to tell me..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:26:54 PM): he does..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:27:08 PM): he doesn't?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:27:34 PM): oo... i got your number before pero may nagdelete sa phone ko
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:28:06 PM): ahhh... naging groupmates pala kami muna sa rle
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:28:13 PM): then nagkaron ng vacation sa rle
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:28:19 PM): so may vacation ako
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:28:25 PM): thats the time na pagpasok ko
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:28:30 PM): inaasar kami
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:28:42 PM): kahit nung rle hindi ko siya kilala
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:28:50 PM): he was quiet and aloof
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:29:05 PM): and then nung inaasar na kami thats the time ko siya nakilala
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:29:11 PM): pero we didnt talk pa
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:29:44 PM): after nun, nagaasaran na kami ng mga classmates ko and him, barahan and so on
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:29:52 PM): but i tell you it wasnt flirting
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:30:16 PM): im the type of person na may pambara palagi
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:30:28 PM): so everytime inaasar ako
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:30:32 PM): inaasar ko din
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:30:44 PM): eh dumating sa point inaasar nadin niya ako
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:30:58 PM): so i said na i thought aloof tong taong to and so on
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:31:02 PM): na masungit
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:31:12 PM): but when nung nangasar siya, friendly pala
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:31:20 PM): yun yung nangyari
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:31:39 PM): and then he called to me, about school
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:31:45 PM): through cellphone
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:32:08 PM): and yun
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:32:20 PM): when he calls me, he opens stuffs about him and you
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:32:24 PM): he tells me stuffs
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:32:43 PM): what's he telling you?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:32:44 PM): nung nagkaroon ng rle na, yung community
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:32:55 PM): im sorry but i dont know if i can tell
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:33:19 PM): you have to
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:33:21 PM): im telling my side lang, i want to respect jay din.. na let him tell you what you're supposed to know
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:33:29 PM): TELL ME
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:33:48 PM): IF YOU DON'T TELL ME YOU'RE ENCOURAGING HIM TO LIE
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:33:57 PM): mmmmmm.....
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:33:59 PM): NO PLEASE TELL ME
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:34:00 PM): okay...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:34:04 PM): fine...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:34:21 PM): to make it simple, malabo na daw kayo...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:34:28 PM): ELABORATE
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:34:55 PM): i dont really know if i can, please, do you think this is easy for me as well?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:35:03 PM): PLEASE TELL ME
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:35:13 PM): WAG MO NA KO TORTURIN SA PAGBITIN MO
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:35:16 PM): SIGE NA
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:35:26 PM): hindi kita binibitin
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:35:34 PM): SIGE NA PLEASE
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:35:37 PM): IM BEGGING YOU
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:35:39 PM): ayoko sabihin sakin na i cant be trusted
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:35:46 PM): please give me time to think about it
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:35:58 PM): gusto ko muna tantyahin kung ano dpat ko sabihin
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:36:05 PM): SIGE NA
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:36:07 PM): SIGE NA
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:36:20 PM): I NEED TO KNOW THE TRUTH
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:36:30 PM): AKALA KO STRAIGHTFORWARD KA
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:36:32 PM): okay, im telling you the truth
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:36:33 PM): BABAE KA DIN
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:36:59 PM): okay.. i understand
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:37:22 PM): well, he told me you were always arguing, di na kayo magkasundo, di na kayo okay
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:38:19 PM): ayun, even bf ko he knows i dont text or call him unless he calls or texts me, you can even ask jay if you want
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:38:39 PM): dahil magkasama kami ng bf ko nung tumawag siya sakin
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:38:49 PM): he was asking about school stuffs
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:39:00 PM): hindi pa yan yon
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:39:05 PM): and when my bf didnt like it, even if he calls di ko na sinasagot
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:39:11 PM): your still not telling something
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:39:25 PM): wait lang, im telling you in detail
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:39:26 PM): you're still hiding something
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:39:46 PM): kung pano nagsimula lahat and pano natapos lahat
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:39:53 PM): okay...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:40:00 PM): please tell everything
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:40:49 PM): okay... then after nun, nung rle, nung mga asaran days, hinahatid niya ako pauwi, not because theres something
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:40:59 PM): going on between us
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:41:12 PM): but sinabi niya na its okay
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:41:21 PM): thats the time he shares stuffs
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:41:28 PM): about you
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:41:35 PM): na hindi na kayo okay
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:41:44 PM): na malabo na relationship niyo
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:41:59 PM): and...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:42:03 PM): mmmm...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:42:22 PM): na parang wala na kayo to make it simple..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:42:32 PM): how did he say it..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:42:37 PM): i need to know
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:43:06 PM): hhhhhhmm
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:43:07 PM): okay
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:43:30 PM): im sorry, but i guess youre right... i need to really clear things up na
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:43:45 PM): he told me youll be breaking up soon
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:44:07 PM): he told me he loves you, but you were too much
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:44:11 PM): you were too demanding
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:44:19 PM): you demand too much
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:44:41 PM): na sometimes he loses his patience
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:44:48 PM): kasi you were just too much..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:45:34 PM): cos he couldn't stop lying
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:45:47 PM): i tell him all the time
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:45:49 PM): i hate liara
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:45:53 PM): liars
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:46:06 PM): ayun..
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:46:22 PM): parang wala na nga kayo to make it simple
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:46:33 PM): i know he doesnt answer your calls sometimes
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:46:53 PM): i know things because he tells me
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:47:06 PM): and...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:47:40 PM): i was there when stuffs were happening... like i ask him why he didnt answer your call
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:47:46 PM): why he doesnt text you
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:48:00 PM): he tells me lang na magaaway lang kasi kayo
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:48:08 PM): to the point na i didnt hear from you na
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:48:32 PM): i thought nung sinabi niya na you guys almost broke up
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:48:35 PM): na nagkatotoo na
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:48:54 PM): na break na talaga kayo
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:48:55 PM): i don't know na..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:49:04 PM): hay..
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:49:48 PM): thats the truth and during that time, bukod sa friends ko, he was always there for me
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:49:53 PM): hindi ako opportunista
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:49:56 PM): sinong nagaasar sa inyo nun? did it come first before the pillows thingy
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:50:08 PM): kasi what i knew was you guys were gone na
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:50:17 PM): ok...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:50:22 PM): you guys were waiting to talk nalang
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:50:27 PM): so parang naging MU kayo for a while
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:51:19 PM): its true diba?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:51:22 PM): i dont know if thats what you call it... pero feeling ko close lang kasi... kasi sa kanya ako nagsasabi pag may problem kami ng boyfriend ko..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:51:32 PM): omg
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:51:40 PM): .. one last thing...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:51:43 PM): he knows everything, from the time na nagkalabuan kame
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:51:45 PM): ng bf ko
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:51:52 PM): til nagkabalikan kami
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:52:01 PM): sinong nangaasar sa inyo nun time na yun?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:52:31 PM): im sorry, pero ayoko talaga mandamay ng iba, tama na yung tayo nalang 4...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:52:52 PM): hindi ko idadamay...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:53:03 PM): i just need to know
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:53:07 PM): thats the truth, i dont have guy friends pero he was always there for me
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:53:30 PM): actually i didnt know how it started kasi irreg ako so i didnt know
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:53:35 PM): pagpasok ko nalang
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:53:42 PM): everyone was nangaasar
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:53:47 PM): who??
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:54:15 PM): i mean half of the class, mga kagroups ko sa rle
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:54:17 PM): who
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:54:24 PM): kasi sabhin ko lahat
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:54:28 PM): masyado marami
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:54:38 PM): i dont know everyone yet pa nga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:55:07 PM): kasi i dont get to be with them that much
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:55:12 PM): omg...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:55:24 PM): thats the truth...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:55:32 PM): i thought you guys were wala na
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:55:47 PM): like parang wala na din
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:55:53 PM): so kung nagkataon edi naging kayo?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:55:55 PM): tell me
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:56:28 PM): i cant tell, kasi he was the one who helped me na makipagbalikan sa bf ko
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:56:34 PM): na magayos ulit kami
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:56:43 PM): di ko alam na may masasagasaan \
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:56:52 PM): so i thought it was okay to talk to him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:56:58 PM): my boyfriend knows that
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:57:08 PM): and jay knows that
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:57:20 PM): im sorry
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:57:23 PM): im so tired
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:57:27 PM): i didnt know talaga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:57:35 PM): this is the whole truth
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:57:52 PM): and please, if you can, tell jay nadin na i dont want anything to do with this anymore
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:58:04 PM): kasi its been months na di ko na talaga siya kinakausap
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:58:07 PM): kinikibo
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:58:28 PM): you're lying
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:58:29 PM): kasi nalaman ko na na you still were together
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:58:35 PM): im not lying
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:58:39 PM): just a week ago magkachat kayo
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:58:41 PM): i know
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:58:42 PM): i dont expect you to believe
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:58:43 PM): me
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:58:44 PM): i read it
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:58:52 PM): a week ago?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:58:52 PM): I've read it
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:58:57 PM): i dont remember honestly
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:59:10 PM): that's the chat na nabasa ko
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:59:10 PM): but if ever we had the chance to talk, its nothing
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:59:14 PM): goodnight pillows
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:59:16 PM): you can ask my classmates
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:59:16 PM): he said
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:59:26 PM): kung how i treat him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 6:59:31 PM): you can ask my friends
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:59:36 PM): and you guys were texting...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 6:59:40 PM): oh my god.
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:00:04 PM): swear, i dont text him anymore
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:00:09 PM): i dont chat with him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:00:16 PM): ngayon lang because of whats happening
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:00:24 PM): i told na everything
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:00:28 PM): if you dont believe me
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:00:33 PM): wala na akong magagawa
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:00:43 PM): siguro kung may kasalanan ako
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:00:45 PM): 2 days before his birthday
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:00:50 PM): magkachat kayo..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:00:56 PM): the dates don't lie
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:00:59 PM): that's what i know
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:01:32 PM): i dont really recall, i dont remember, but you can ask him if you want or ask other people
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:01:36 PM): pero wala na talaga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:01:51 PM): now that i know na you're still together
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:01:55 PM): kung may mali ak o
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:01:57 PM): ako
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:02:06 PM): ok... i'm telling you now.
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:02:07 PM): siguro thats yung nakiride ako sa jokes nila
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:02:09 PM): wala na kami.
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:02:13 PM): so thanks.
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:02:45 PM): okay...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:03:07 PM): but sana think of it din...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:05:50 PM): well, thats the truth, gless.. sometimes siguro you better learn to listen din...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:06:04 PM): thats the truth
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:06:14 PM): if he calls me this or that, i dont have anything to do with it
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:06:25 PM): but where did it begin?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:06:38 PM): how can i listen when nobody's fucking talking
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:06:47 PM): now im talking
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:06:56 PM): anung where did it begin?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:07:16 PM): yung tawagan nyo..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:07:19 PM): you see...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:07:23 PM): hindi ako nagselos don
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:07:34 PM): but he lied about it
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:07:41 PM): that's why nagkaissue
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:08:00 PM): i cant recall the exact date, pero it was first semester
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:08:20 PM): august?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:08:24 PM): im not really sure
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:08:41 PM): he called me up lyk pagkahatid sakin sa house
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:08:46 PM): sa cellphone
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:09:02 PM): and asked if he can call me sa landline
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:09:10 PM): he calls you pillows when you're talking?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:09:13 PM): di ba?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:09:54 PM): like when?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:09:59 PM): he calls me hannah kasi
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:10:46 PM): he calls me that as a joke
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:10:55 PM): fuck that
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:11:09 PM): he's still calling you that behind my back
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:11:17 PM): when?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:11:23 PM): it's not that i am closed minded...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:11:27 PM): he calls me like that but i dont call him that
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:11:32 PM): yun yung totoo
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:11:37 PM): pero.. pucha kahit sinong babae magrereact don eh
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:11:44 PM): after when i knew about you
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:11:55 PM): i know
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:12:08 PM): kasi i thought nga wala na kayo
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:12:20 PM): pero before that you call him pillows?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:12:31 PM): anung before that?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:12:37 PM): ganito
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:12:37 PM): before knowing
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:12:39 PM): detail ko sayo
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:12:46 PM): yun nga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:12:48 PM): before
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:12:54 PM): before you know na kami pa?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:13:01 PM): tawag ko sa kanya jay, then tawag niya sakin hannah
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:13:17 PM): then when yung tawagan na yun started
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:13:42 PM): alam ko wala na kayo, na as in di na maayos yung relationship niyo
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:13:52 PM): around when?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:13:55 PM): august?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:14:04 PM): i dont really remember frankly
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:14:13 PM): you cant really depend me on dates or months
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:14:31 PM): ok, so for a while parang MU kayo ganun?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:14:33 PM): august or september
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:14:59 PM): hindi, kasi i call him that kasi chubby siya, its not because mu kami nun
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:15:11 PM): pero hinahatid ka nya
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:15:14 PM): tinatawagan ka nya
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:15:21 PM): you went to bulacan together
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:15:26 PM): and he tells you na wala na kami
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:15:32 PM): what do you call that?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:15:41 PM): dont tell me you didnt like him
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:15:44 PM): that's stupid
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:16:24 PM): hes nice oo, tapos he listens to me, its not wrong to like a person but to love a person beyond that, hindi di ba
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:16:47 PM): okay
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:16:50 PM): about bulacan
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:16:58 PM): i know you want to know about it din
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:17:04 PM): of course
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:17:11 PM): he called me up and asked me if i want to go there
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:17:50 PM): sabi ko i cant, kasi my boyfriend's coming sa house.. then he said he wanted to go there kasi you guys broke up, to relax din
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:17:56 PM): sabi ko i cant
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:18:01 PM): that fucker
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:18:01 PM): i really cant
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:18:34 PM): then after that, he called again, sabi ko, bakit ka sad? parang he was depressed or what
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:18:54 PM): then he told me na kasi you guys were not together na nga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:19:00 PM): and then ayun
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:19:05 PM): he has no one to be with
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:19:10 PM): talaga?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:19:14 PM): sabi ko why not ask glecy di ba
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:19:19 PM): bago lang sya umalis katext ko lang sya eh
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:19:30 PM): i know she would love it if you asked him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:19:38 PM): yup
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:19:39 PM): yun yung totoo
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:19:44 PM): then sabi niya na hindi
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:19:51 PM): kasi wala na nga
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:20:12 PM): you broke up with him, siyempre we were close na
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:20:23 PM): so i said sige
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:20:25 PM): I BROKE UP WITH HIM?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:20:33 PM): if thats what will make you happy
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:20:39 PM): oo yun yung totoo
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:20:43 PM): sinasabi ko na sayo
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:20:50 PM): then we went there
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:20:52 PM): grabeh!
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:20:55 PM): and you werent texting him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:21:00 PM): so i thought it was true
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:21:02 PM): talaga??
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:21:08 PM): na you guys werent together na
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:21:09 PM): TEXT AKO NG TEXT SA KANYA
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:21:17 PM): i didnt know im sorry
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:21:17 PM): DI SYA NAGREREPLY
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:21:29 PM): im telling you everything you should know to keep me out of this
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:21:44 PM): i appreciate that.
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:21:59 PM): ayun and then pinuntahan niya ako sa house
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:22:10 PM): like around 10pm or 11pm..
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:22:18 PM): then i talked to him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:22:23 PM): i asked him what happened
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:22:34 PM): hindi siya masyado nagopen na
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:22:56 PM): pero yun lang, sabi niya na you broke up with him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:23:09 PM): so i thought he was really depressed kaya he wanted to go there
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:23:51 PM): yun yung totoo, i asked him several times bakit hindi ikaw yung yayain para makapagusap din kayo
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:23:59 PM): to patch things up
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:24:05 PM): grabeh.
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:24:10 PM): papalakpakan ko sya
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:24:12 PM): im telling you this kasi ako lumalabas na kontrabida
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:24:22 PM): ako yung lumalabas na masama
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:24:45 PM): im sorry pero i wanted to talk to you nadin before
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:25:08 PM): yun yung sa bulacan
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:25:19 PM): thats the truth gless
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:25:39 PM): if you dont believe me
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:25:39 PM): thats fine
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:25:50 PM): ang sakit lang
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:26:00 PM): na parang nawala lahat sakin ganun
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:26:04 PM): kasi he's all i have.
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:26:08 PM): alam mo ba yun..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:26:13 PM): sya lang meron ako
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:26:23 PM): and im not taking him away from you
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:26:28 PM): i just didnt know
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:26:42 PM): dahil if i knew, it wouldnt be this way
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:26:50 PM): kung ako yung masama sayo
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:26:56 PM): matatanggap ko
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:27:05 PM): omg..
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:27:06 PM): but yun yung totoo
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:27:25 PM): di ko na alam...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:28:02 PM): so ngayon he's expecting me to just forget..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:28:14 PM): ang sakit sakit sobra...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:29:06 PM): kung galit ka sakin, i understand... pero sana you would understand na whatever i did, its because i thought wala akong mababangga
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:29:17 PM): sobrang sakit talaga...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:29:21 PM): i wanted jay to tell you everything
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:29:26 PM): bago ako ang magsabi
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:29:29 PM): parang gumuho yung mundo ko..
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:29:36 PM): pero its too much
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:30:02 PM): i felt na parang ako lahat may kasalanan dahil hindi ako nagsasalita
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:30:22 PM): kasi i thought jay would settle things with you
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:30:24 PM): na siya na bahala makipagusap sayuo
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:30:36 PM): alam mo... i loved him too much...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:30:45 PM): i gave him everything..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:30:57 PM): kahit ano.. i never asked for anything back
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:31:04 PM): i know, kaya nga sakin ka din nagagalit, dahil i think d mo kaya magalit sa kanya
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:31:17 PM): dahil you love him
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:31:23 PM): thats what women do
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:31:56 PM): gusto ko lang mabuhay ng tahimik
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:32:10 PM): and whatevers going on with you guys
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:32:14 PM): ayoko na makelam
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:32:22 PM): now you know the truth
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:32:42 PM): i hope sana i could have that peace
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:33:31 PM): i did my thing
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:33:36 PM): to tell you
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:33:53 PM): sana sa part niyo din, do your thing din
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:35:05 PM): so is there something you want to know pa?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:35:22 PM): meron ka pa bang hindi nasasabi?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:35:28 PM): like what?
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:35:35 PM): ikaw..
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:35:37 PM): kasi sa dami di ko na maalala
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:35:46 PM): kung ano mga nasabi ko \
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:36:17 PM): ok. thanks..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:36:28 PM): don't worry, di na kita dadamay
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:36:35 PM): most probably nasabi ko na lahat
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:36:37 PM): thanks for being honest.
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:36:43 PM): youre welcome
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:36:51 PM): one more thing...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:36:59 PM): pano nya ko ikwento sayo?
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:37:17 PM): again im sorry, if naging close kami sobra, again,its because i thought wala na kayo
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:37:31 PM): before? sinasabi niya mahal ka niya
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:37:37 PM): kaso you demand too much
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:37:42 PM): yun
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:37:55 PM): youre nice
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:38:04 PM): kaso sometimes sumpungin
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:38:18 PM): yun yung sinasabi niya most of the time
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:38:28 PM): if i recall something i would tell you
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:38:35 PM): for now un lang naaalala ko
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:39:20 PM): ok... please tell me if you remember anything else..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:39:31 PM): i'm tired.
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:39:33 PM): i would but for now yun lang eh
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:40:05 PM): what im telling now is the truth,..
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:40:14 PM): i understand kung di ka maniwala
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:40:20 PM): kaso kahit anong piga mo sakin
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:40:23 PM): i believe you
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:40:28 PM): wala na talaga akong sasabihin
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:40:30 PM): thanks
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:40:38 PM): thanks kung ganun
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:40:49 PM): wala lagn..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:40:58 PM): parang ang laki ng nawala sakin...
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:41:15 PM): parang di ko na alam kung bakit andito pa ko ganun..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:41:24 PM): now i know what to do...
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:41:56 PM): well.. again masasabi ko lang is im sorry, if nagkakaganyan ka ngayon, i didnt really mean to do that..
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:42:36 PM): ok
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:43:20 PM): im sorry
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:43:36 PM): i did what i have to do
jm9cabrera (12/22/2008 7:43:47 PM): sana now you can tell me na im really out of this
glecy_riomalos (12/22/2008 7:44:11 PM): ok.

Because I can't post albums.. (darn it)

2008-12-19T15:51:00.000+08:00

My dear Yeye and I went on a date to World Trade to check out the Christmas Bazaar. The place was packed like hell! It's like you'll hurt someone or get hurt yourself whenever you'd attempt to move a single step. Haha! Made me feel so freakin' tired, my legs and feet hurt so bad, not to mention the 100kg laptop inside my bag. It is so freakin' heavy! My goodness, natanggal yata balikat ko dun! :-l But, believe it or not, I enjoyed our date..

and here are the reasons why:

1. There are a lot of *ehem!* :D

2. I found the perfect pair of rubber slippers. It is cheap (P180), It is very comfy, It is simple YET super cute, and it's unique. made just for me. :)

3. Food Fest! Yeah!

4. It ended my search for the perfect laptop bag. Thank you Bazaar! =)

5. I have found a ring that looks so much like what Nicole Ritchie's always wearing... the ring I thought i'd only see in my dreams.. I'm so inlove with it. =)

6. My source of entertainment - Yeye!! :) You'll never ever get bored when you're with her. She's super fun and so cool to hang-out with. Loveyou dear! :-*

7. Lastly... it took all of my emotional stress away... All the hurt, the anger, the loneliness and THE doubts... Shopping really is the best therapy. I highly recommend it. ;p

Apologies..

2008-12-13T18:14:00.000+08:00

I feel really bad after posting those pictures that I should've kept private for us.. I feel guilty that it made you look really bad. I'm sorry.. I shouldn't have.

I was really angry and I couldn't get over it. Even after all your apologies and tears -- they just weren't enough for me. I was just too angry and maybe too scared. Still, I know it wasn't an excuse, cause after all, I did accept your sorry/s right?

Sigh! I know you didn't mean to hurt me. And I know I'll get over it. But, I shouldn't have hurt you back. It makes me feel terrible.

Now it's my turn to say... I'M SORRY.

PS. And yes, I'm willing to start over.

Bittersweet..

2008-10-31T08:38:00.000+08:00

Ivy Walker: When we are married, will you dance with me? I find dancing very agreeable. Why can you not say what is in your head?
Lucius Hunt: Why can you not stop saying what is in yours? Why must you lead, when I want to lead? If I want to dance I will ask you to dance. If I want to speak I will open my mouth and speak. Everyone is forever plaguing me to speak further. Why? What good is it to tell you you are in my every thought from the time I wake? What good can come from my saying that I sometimes cannot think clearly or do my work properly? What gain can rise of my telling you the only time I feel fear as others do is when I think of you in harm? That is why I am on this porch, Ivy Walker. I fear for your safety before all others. And yes, I will dance with you on our wedding night.

-from "The Village"

here`s to all those girls who used to be his number one.

the ones who waited all night for him to text, only to check your cell phone the next morning and be disappointed. the ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. the ones who listened to him say, “i only want to be your friend,” one day, then listened to him say that he loves and misses you, and the next when he doesn`t want to be anything at all. here`s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.

we listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, and even snuck around to see him even for a while. we went through the great stage with no fights all over again. we started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. we wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. and when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. this is for us.

here`s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. here`s for the tears cried and dried all over again. we wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn`t possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. we trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. we learned to SETTLE for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated.

here`s for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest everything, only to hear him say that he couldn`t see us today. the ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. we just couldn’t believe that he could do this to us again.

this is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn`t bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder “what if?”

this is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation. the ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. when he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn`t mean it. this is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.

this is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that “you`re just not the one for me.” or maybe, “Things were going too fast, i`m just not ready.” (then later on find out he has a damn girlfriend already.)

here`s to the girls who couldn`t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.

the ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. this is for the ones who couldn`t bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an “i told you so.”

the ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.

we knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us when ever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. we just wanted the one that we loved like that.

here`s for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave one thought about them.

here`s for the time that he took to waste, breaking your heart … again.

this is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.

here`s for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.

this is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.

stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it`s better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again.

remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.

when your song comes on the radio, turn the station.
when the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off.
when he tries coming to your house, don`t answer the door.

think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was.

think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn`t him, and realized that once again, he hadn`t called when he said he was going to.

one day, you`ll find a guy who`s worth all the tears, but he won`t make you cry. you may think that you`l never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.
it`s gonna hurt like hell, and it`s going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

For every woman...

2008-10-12T17:25:00.000+08:00

From Shane's blog. =)

For Every Woman...
by Nancy R. Smith

For every woman who is tired of acting weak when she knows she is strong;
There is a man who is tired of appearing strong when he feels vulnerable.

For every woman who is tired of acting dumb;
There is a man who is burdened with the responsibility of ‘knowing everything’.

For every women who is tired of being called an ‘emotional female’;
There is a man who is denied the right to weep and be gentle.

For every woman who is called unfeminine when she competes;
There is a man for whom competition is the only way to prove he is masculine.

For every woman who is tired of being a sex object;
There is a man who must worry about his potency.

For every woman who feels ‘tied down’ by her children;
There is a man who is denied the full pleasure of parenthood.

For every woman who is denied meaningful employment and equal pay;
There is a man who must bear the financial responsibility for another human being.

For every woman who was not taught the intricacies of an automobile;
There is a man who was not taught the satisfaction of cooking.

For every woman who takes a step towards her own liberation;
There is a man who finds that the way to freedom has been made a little easier.

Tried to argue with..

2008-09-22T12:50:00.000+08:00

~"No one really listens to anyone else, and if you try it for a while you'll see why" ... "The only courage that matters, is the kind that gets you from one moment to the next" !!! It's the most unhappy people who most fear change In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing. The head never rules the heart, but just becomes its partner in crime. ~ [i] Mignon McLaughlin

Confusion.

2008-09-22T10:49:00.000+08:00

"..We always talk about right and wrong, as if they were absolutes..but life isnt that simple.. The world is full of complexity..and people are a hopeless tangle of contradictions.."

They really are...and from what I can see, people are enjoying it. Most of the people my age tend to embrace it, maybe to give an impression that we are intelligent enough to decode these contradictions, where in fact, it only causes nothing more than misdirection. In other words, our noble attempts to impress people, we usually end up only confusing ourselves.

(Hey D, I can't find you anywhere. Where the heck are you??)

from cerise...

2008-09-15T14:59:00.001+08:00

we're miles apart..
admitting that we have chosen a different path
from the point of origin
we are tyring to cover the past
with the ideas the present provides
no longer dealing with the issues
where feelings are tangled
and words are but mere promises
forgotten and buried.

the chest is now open
revealing all that the cover-ups tried to hide
everything is finally pieced together
now we both say...
we still want to find ourselves
holding hands
walking like we used to be...

knowing what we both want
feeling that everything aches
but were simply walking away
from the sad story of yesterday..

-from cerise banaag

you really are silly...

2008-09-15T13:22:00.004+08:00

I dream of His face,
touched not by death,
but His look far far away..
His talk already asking
if I finished my part
in an artistic venture
started by Him...
..For an answer,
I'll need to dream longer..

A friend wrote something in his blog that made me laugh (evily / devilish-ly).. He was really excited about what happened to him yesterday(?), and as i went on reading his story, i got more and more fascinated on how he was able to charm his readers into believing that what he feels (or maybe felt) is sincere. Though i can't really judge him cause i don't know everything, however, i am able to recall some things about him in the past that makes me doubt everything real hard(His recent entry at least)..

"Why can't it be me? I think I can do better than him.."

Haha! you had your chance dude! And You just let it go.. I also remember you saying the same things to your ex-girlfriend and me before! haha! And what did you do?? tsk! tsk! wake up wake up! =)

Anyhow, unless you grow up, you'll never find anyone, and nobody will find you... (although from what i've heard you have a lot of chicas na ah! haha! well, not the ones who last though!)

Well, I'm still here as a friend whenever you need one.. but hopefully, you'll see how bad it could be when nobody's taking you seriously.. Goodluck! =)

Proof?

2008-09-10T08:23:00.003+08:00

"Ay naku glecy napaka moody mo. Di ba sabi ko maliligo ako? Bawal? Bawal fone sa community iniwan ko sa kotse kahit break bawal umalis. Kagabi tatlong oras ako sa kalsada pagkahatid ko sa inyo, pagkauwi ko nkatulog na ko agad. Di naman ako dapat pa magpaliwanag pa saiyo eh. Di ko naman poblema kung baluktotka talaga magisip eh. Alam mo kung alin ang nakakawalang gana? Ayan. Yang ugali mong yan. Diko naman poblema yan eh. Di naman ako kailangan maapektohan,di kailangan masira araw ko dahil baluktot pagiisip ng ibang tao. Kaya eto, bahala ka. Pagisipan mo mabuti isasagot mo sakin, dahil pagod ako ngayon, di kita pagtiyatiyagaan. Payo ko wag kana magreply dahil mali ka!"

-Love letter from Jason, last night.

Well, what can i say? sobrang derecho niya mag-isip lagi siyang tama. Bawal makipag-argue. Where's the love? Take note, ibang tao na pala ko sa kanya ngayon...

WELL THEN, OK. YOU'RE FREE. =)

What the??

2008-08-14T12:59:00.003+08:00

What the?? What's with all that bs!?
You don't need to explain yourself to me? BAkit sino ba ko!?

Ayaw ko na magsalita things that i might regret. Basta.

Anyhow... here's my new favorite song... this is for you.

Kate Voegele / Kindly Unspoken
Piano Tabs

eadgbe
[accord]D[/accord]: 000232
[accord]A[/accord]: 002220
[accord]C[/accord]: 032010
[accord]G[/accord]: 320033
[accord]C[/accord]/[accord]G4[/accord]: 030010
D4e: 002233
[accord]d4[/accord]/[accord]a#[/accord]: x10033
[accord]E[/accord] : 022100

intro

[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] [accord]C[/accord]/[accord]G4[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] [accord]C[/accord]...

[accord]D[/accord]
As high as the moon
[accord]A[/accord]
So high were my spirits
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
When you sang out my name

[accord]D[/accord]
And coming from you
[accord]A[/accord]
It was enough just to hear it
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
Oh, it rang like the bells did today

[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
But even the sturdiest ground
[accord]A[/accord] D4e
Can shift and can tremble and let us fall down

Chorus:

[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord]
Kindly unspoken
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
You show your emotion
[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] [accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
And silence speaks louder than words oh
[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord]
It's lucky I'm clever
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
Cause if I didn't know better
[accord]d4[/accord]/[accord]a#[/accord] [accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] [accord]C[/accord]/[accord]G4[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
I'd believe only that which I'd heard

[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] [accord]C[/accord]

[accord]D[/accord]
In the days of my folly
[accord]A[/accord]
I followed your lead
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
Did what Simon Said to do

[accord]D[/accord]
But I won't let melancholy
[accord]A[/accord]
Play me for a fool
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
Oh, no I'm on my way somewhere new

[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
And as far as your lack of something to say
[accord]A[/accord] D4e
Well, to tell me goodbye there was no better way

Chorus:

[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord]
Kindly unspoken
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
You show your emotion
[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] [accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
And silence speaks louder than words oh
[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord]
It's lucky I'm clever
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
Cause if I didn't know better
[accord]d4[/accord]/[accord]a#[/accord] [accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] [accord]C[/accord]/[accord]G4[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
I'd believe only that which I'd heard

[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] [accord]C[/accord]

Bridge:
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
So don't keep me up till the dawn
[accord]Bm[/accord] [accord]C[/accord]
With words that'll keep leading me on
[accord]G[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] D4e
I know much better than to wait for an answer from you

Ending Chorus:
[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord]
Kindly unspoken
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
You show your emotion
[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord] [accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
And silence speaks louder than words
[accord]D[/accord] [accord]A[/accord]
It's lucky I'm clever
[accord]C[/accord] [accord]G[/accord]
'Cause if I didn't know better
[accord]d4[/accord]/[accord]a#[/accord] [accord]D[/accord]
I'd believe only that which I'd heard
[accord]G[/accord] [accord]D[/accord] [accord]E[/accord] [accord]D[/accord] [accord]G[/accord] [accord]D[/accord]
OH OOOH OH OHH OH OHH

lyricsmode is so cool! =)

I'd hate it to end...

2008-08-13T09:17:00.004+08:00

I'd hate it to end...

But you see, I think it's what's best for us. You need to concentrate with school and I need to straighten myself up. I think we both need some breathing space.

It seems like I've forgotten who I am ever since we've met, not that I really knew who I was, but before, even with all that depressing state, I can say that I knew where I was going. But right now, I'm more lost than ever. I really need to rediscover myself.

You see, when I realized that I love you, I completely gave myself to you, without questions, without reservations, hoping that you feel the same way as I do. But, as everyone sees it, it's like I have constantly thrown myself to you like a cheap rag, and at first I really didn't care because I thought that when you're in love, nothing else would matter.. But then, lately, you made me feel like everything I did was just for nothing, and I feel so stupid for fooling myself.. for not ever seeing it coming. For believing on Happily Ever After.

Well clearly, since it's already been 5 days, you've already decided. I've been waiting you know.

Still, I want you to know that I didn't want to drag you down with me,I never inteded to... And I do want to apologize if you feel that way. I'm sorry. But, I've warned you you know, I told you I was cursed, that nothing good would ever happen to me, and I really appreciate that you decided to stay -- then. But now, I guess you just realized that I was right.

It hurts so much that I can't think clearly anymore..

I just hope that you'd find what you're looking for and that you'll be happy.
I want you to be..

But please understand if I can't be your friend. I can't do that.

Also, thank you for everything, thank you for being my special someone for a long time. You're someone I'll always be proud of, and I'll never ever regret that I had you in my life. Thank you.

2008-08-06T10:38:00.000+08:00

Last night was supposed to be special...

ALICIA KEYS

2008-08-05T13:13:00.000+08:00

EXCITED?!?

Later at SMX - 8pm. We'll see you there. =)

Who's more likely to survive?

2008-07-28T15:16:00.003+08:00

Who's more likely to survive?

here's a very interesting question for y'all. Who's more likely to survive a disaster?

1. An old man who's really intelligent and smart, but not strong enough to run or jump. In short, a man whose reflexes grew old with him.

-or-

2. A child, a young boy who's physically strong and healthy but is not smart enough to think for himself.

The scenario: Aliens just landed on earth and wanted the planet for themselves. So, whenever they see a human being they'd either kill them, or abduct them for scientific experiments. Supposedly, both of them were kidnapped and placed in different rooms. Then, there's this alien who gave all the prisoners a chance to escape. He'd let all the doors of their space ship open for only 5 minutes. And those who got out will never be bothered again. But those who won't make it will be used immediately for the upcoming experiment. The catch is, they all have to pass the guards in the ship. So, who d'ya think will survive?

//Sick psycho writing something so stupid like this! Gosh! i can't even imagine anyone getting out! i bet everyone will be too freakin' scared to take a single step out of their cages. Yeah! WTF!//

My sister's in the hospital again. They held her in for her illness. She's now confirmed to have "Lupus Nephritis". It's the kind of lupus that weakens the kidney. And so she's drinking all these meds and steroids that weakens her overall immune system. So she gets sick all the time. Now the doctors think she caught typhoid fever. wtf! it's freakin' hard already! God please give my sister a break. Stop punishing her. Take the pedophile on the news instead. Please listen to us. We really need your help. Amen.

so beautiful

2008-07-04T18:52:00.003+08:00

SO BEAUTIFUL...

second thoughts

2008-07-04T18:31:00.003+08:00

Okay, i just had second thoughts on what i posted -- (the insanity control thing??) -- i was having my breakfast and doing the diet thing with these teas blah blah... then, i saw burgers on tv. it's not that i thought of having one right away, the thing is i controlled the hunger. i controlled the urge to get one. and thinking back, i was asking, how did i do it? was it because i can? the answer, i don't know, all i know is, i am not capable of controlling anything, moreover, my own insanity.

it's not now a question of control, it's now a question of one's nature. like on the burgers.. i could control it because i am not american, but i can't control my urge with rice. see the difference? same with insanity. you cannot control it if you're born insane. to be able to control means that you are not. hope that i'm making myself clear here. i just got a little confused myself over the past few days. i was experiencing (or maybe till now) some episodes of depression. and i really find it so hard to handle. it's like someone important in my life died infront of me. i just can't control it, no matter how hard i tell myself to get up, take a bath and go to school... i'll always find a reason to give up, and drown into the feeling. it's really sad.

and so lately, i've been going to jason's school to find answers. waiting for him even if it's just for a minute before he goes to class. i'd wait for him so i could remind myself that i have reasons in life. to convince myself that i could still hang on, that i could still do it.

to top it all, lately, all i've been feeling is so much anger or so much sadness. i feel so angry with everything, everyone, with the ones who made me like this, with the ones who never taught me how to live, with the people who took my life from me... and in the end, all the anger will be overcome by so much sadness... it made me feel so worthless, so vulnerable, and so pathetic. and i'll get to hate myself even more because there is no one else to blame but myself.

okay, good thing no one's reading my stupid blog, cos writing here makes me feel much better. and i just don't want to be judged by people. i don't want anyone to think i'm crazy or worse, pathetic. coz believe me, i am trying really really hard not to be.

shoutouts..

2008-07-02T10:54:00.006+08:00

i was surfing through my friendster account to check out new stuff, or people, or whatever... then i saw someone's shout out, and it says: "Hating me won't make you pretty." and i was like WTF?!? haha! annoying isn't it? considering that she's not even pretty herself. seriously! Gahwd! how annoying! haha! anyway, whatever. /edit/ she's not referring to me tho! /edit/

i just never found shoutouts interesting, till (maybe) now. haha! so i checked the others. and here are the most common shoutouts you'll see on friendster:

1. bible verse (now that's a classic!)

2. cellphone quotes (ahuh!)

3. poems

4. lines from movies

5. lines from songs

haha! okay, so if your shoutout is not among the listed, i guess that means your special or your using your brain too much. haha! (right! right!)

anyho, i miss people... i miss having a decent conversation... i miss being around people who have brains... and i miss hanging out on cool places. gosh! i'm like in the 1st layer of hell! everyone is just so umph! haha! k, whatever. haha. i guess i'll just have to enjoy it, or no graduation for me! and i'll be kissing medschool goodbye, haha! no way! i'm still supposed to find cure for aids you know.. (sana! to encourage fornication! haha!) ok, i've typed enough. ciao!

Something New to Learn

2008-06-17T09:44:00.001+08:00

Something New to Learn

"Learn to Control Your Insanity... Cause it's the only borderline between normal and mad people.."

WELCOME BACK!

2008-01-23T18:41:00.000+08:00

WELCOME BACK!

OK... i'm going back to a normal school next school year... So i guess goodbye film school! :'(

Anyway, to be a bum for 4 months i think won't be a good experience at all... so.... what to do?? hmmm...

i've been busying myself with my college applications, i'll be having my exam for UA&P on Jan27, and the deadline for the requirements is on Jan23, and i haven't written my application essay yet...

i'm also going to try my luck on dlsu as a transferee... hay naku...

well, at least now i have the freedom to choose any course that i want, unlike before....

so there... at long last... everything is falling into place.

REALLY?

2008-01-18T17:22:00.000+08:00

REALLY?

Gee. i never thought you could be someone like me...

Stay away from it dear as soon as you can, cause there'll be no turning back once you...

...like i did...

listen to your people. they're showing you their love. there's still time dear.

love,

glecy

thank you..

2007-12-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU FOR CHOOSING ME... I'M SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE. YOU'RE THE PERFECT CHRISTMAS GIFT FOR ME... =)

SHE DANCED WITH DEATH - thank you to shane

2007-12-23T16:35:00.000+08:00

Winter
by Jessica Spencer, aged 12

Winter seduced the leaves off,
And gave the ground a jewelled mantle.
The lake froze when she laughed,
Trees wore her rings,
And the rabbits slept with her dreams.
She danced through the forest,
She sang crystal songs,
Her laugh was a peal of bells,
She told tales of love,
And everyone adored her.
Only the birds saw through her laugh,
They fled south, out of her icy grip.
The flocks were afraid,
Because the man she danced with,
Was death.

BORED

2007-12-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

BORED

I HATE GLOBE AND SMART!

Jason is in macau with his entire family and we're finding ways to communicate while he's there. Since Jason is a Smart Postpaid subscriber, he first called Smart to activate his roaming.

Cust Serv Rep: Rates for Macau sir, P120/min for outgoing calls, P35/min for incoming calls, P20/text consisting of 160-char message and all incoming texts are free sir. Meron pa po palang P2,500 na bond contract that u have to sign. Refundable naman po pagbalik nyo galin macau.

So we tried globe because i'm a globe postpaid subscriber.

Cust Serv Rep: P130/min for outgoing calls, P35/min for incoming calls, P25/txt msg, and all incoming txt msgs are free. But you have to sign a contract mam and submit it through fax or personally on any branch, then call again our hotline after for activation. 24 hours po ang activation period.

So w/o any choice left, we used a prepaid sim to save us all the hassle and had its roaming activated.
The sim has a 400-peso load and we thought it's better. When he reached macau, he txtd me and asked me to call him. After 3mins of conversation, the line was cut. I tried calling again and again and the optr. Just kept on saying, 'Sorry, this call cannot be completed'. I started to get pissed, so i called up the hotline again and askd for the prepaid rates.

Cust Serv Rep: Our rates for macau mam is P60/min both incoming and outgoing calls, kahit missed call lang po mam may charge, then P25 po for outgoing txt msgs 160-char, and free po mam lahat ng incoming txts.

Can you imagine how pissed i am right now? Freakin' m0nsters! Grrrr!!!

LET ME EXPLAIN..

2007-12-18T20:06:00.000+08:00

LET ME FIRST EXPLAIN MY ART...

theme/mood: (mostly) ANGST

favorite topic: ANY CONFLICT THAT INCLUDES ME

strategy: WERE YOU EVER FAMILIAR WITH ALANIS MORISSETTE? THAT'LL GIVE YOU A CLUE

art: WRITING, MUSIC, FILM MAKING, WRITING, WRITING... etc.

Please take note of that so you won't tell me to 'relax' or whatever in my own blog / art space, ok? Geez.

THANK YOU!!

RESPECT

2007-12-17T17:14:00.000+08:00

LET'S TALK ABOUT FREAKIN' RESPECT BABY.

LET'S TALK ABOUT U & ME.

There you are preaching about this thing, when the truth is, you're the one who doesn't have a single clue about what it really means. You respect people who have placed so much limit to themselves by choosing to be good sheeps all the time. But, has anyone ever told you that being right is not about you? That being right and sticking to what's supposedly morally correct is not always on how you expect yourself and other people to behave? Listen to yourself. you keep on talking about respect but did it ever occur to you that the word 'diversity' exists? That you should also be respecting other people's opinions, and habits, or whatever you call it? How disappointing.

That's what's wrong with people like you. You ASS-U-ME. You assume that people who dared to do things out of the ordinary (i.e. drinking, smoking) are always bad people. You should've known better.

I respect the fact that you hate us. I'm cool with it.

I also respect the fact of your tendency to be such an ass.

Which also reminds me, please don't ever underestimate people's capability to think. We are all grown ups now and i believe that we are all capable of making decisions for ourselves. Just because we don't have the same opinions doesn't mean that you have to be such an asshole.

What makes you think that you're any better than US?

And you call yourself religious.

Yeah right.

RESPECT HONEY. RESPECT.

Lighten up.

WHAT?!?

2007-12-11T17:49:00.000+08:00

What have i been up to for the past months???

Well, i've been busy enjoying, learning, learning enjoying, enjoying learning... it's all so cool! =p

too bad, don't have any cams to show some pics, but damn! i'm telling you! every single god-given day is a bliss! every single second... oh man! i've been livin'! =D

anyway, i've noticed, as i come across new learnings, i keep on moving forward to become something i never thought i'd be... let's just say, people prefer it to be called AGNOSTIC.

yup! you got it right! weird noh? before i was like the most loyal servant ever, preaching everyone and all that sh*t.. but then, i started to get confused. and i know, i'm not the only one who had a 180-degree turn.. it was all so sudden... and now, i don't know what to think anymore.

sabaw ng utak ko... lacks sense...

unlike before, evertime i'd be infront of a monitor or i'd be handed a pen and paper, i'd be flooded with ideas, emotions, and all that. but now, i'm like one of those stupid povedans. haha! (well, not all. some are cool. =p love you hannah!)

i hope to see everyone soon. miss y'all so much! *kisses!*

It's almost Xmas, meaning, Glecymas. haha! (Oh no! i'm almost a non-teenager! Evolution here i come!) =D

Smoking

2007-12-11T17:43:00.000+08:00

SMOKING

What a weird thing smoking is
and I can't stop it.
I feel cosy, have a sense
of well-being when I'm smoking,
poisoning myself,
killing myself slowly.
Not so slowly maybe.
I have all kinds of pains
I don't want to know about
and I know that's what they're from.
But when I don't smoke
I scarcely feel as if I'm living.
I don't feel as if I'm living
unless I'm killing myself.

~Russell Hoban, Turtle Diary, 1975

thank you to Shane. =p

100th post.

2007-12-10T10:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2 decades of Jason Rustia! yehey! I LOVE YOU!

i'll post the pics some other time, i feel so lazy to do stuff for the past 2 weeks. don't know why. anyway, i'll be seeing you guys soon. miss you all. =D

RUSH TV!

2007-12-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

RUSH TV! Atin To! =D

I saw Nikki this afternoon Hosting Rush TV, and I was like OMG! That's Nikki! Haha! Eeeww! Showbiz!

Anyway, Nikki, i know you're reading this, so i'll probably just give you a showbiz-y message:

Goodluck to your career and we're always here for you..

Haha! no, seriously though, good job for making it on tv! haha! (akalain mo yun!) showbiz girl! Well, I Hope to see you soon darling. Miss you! *kiss!*

And as requested, i'm promoting the show, please watch it. The Show is called Rush TV @ Studio23 6:00-7:30pm Mon-Sat. (there you go!)

Yes

2007-11-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD!!

It's so freakin' unfair!! Why the hell can't i watch the concert??? Geez..

Oh well.. i wouldn't care that much after a long time anyway...

Ok. i actually do have a sensible story to share here, but i guess i don't have the mood to write it now cos i feel so tamad typing here in the pc. anyway, bottomline of my supposedly sensible story:

POVEDA = SLUT FACTORY.

Agree? Agree? Aye! =D

Graduation Pictures of JAY2

2007-10-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

(Graduation Pictures of JAY2)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! =D I found them on Enzo H.'s multiply. haha. =D

What it is.

2007-10-17T18:18:00.000+08:00

You've asked me a lot of times if it's been your fault... even though i only have to choose between yes or no, i still couldn't answer it. The truth is, i really don't know.

I am a free spirit. Once you've placed me in a cage, prisoner or no prisoner, i'd still die. I could never survive in a world of confinement - a world of definitions, justifications, and most of all limitations. I've been living in this cage for quite some time now, and i'm now pleading... please let me out. Set me free...

I am yearning for my soul's restoration, craving for happiness, starving for something that's true... something that's real. And all of this can't be fulfilled by anyone but you, cos you are my knight and my forever.

I never wanted any thing, nor expected sweet words or gestures. What I want is a love that's exciting.. a love that is true.. a love with no expectations.. and a love with no LIMITATIONS.

All it takes is one phone call. That's it.

for a friend...

2007-10-15T13:14:00.000+08:00

You've messaged me on my other blog. after a long, long, long time. I'm kinda missin' going ot with you guys... all just seem so different now. Anyway, i saw your multiply and you're so FAT! haha! =D oh boy! what happened to you?? hahahaha! oh well, if 'humpin the honeys' is what you say it is, then, whatever dude... haha! SERIOUSLY, do guys get fat just by humpin' the honeys? or is it because of somethin' else? haha! who is she!? dammit. you haven't called me for almost a year now. haha! ass*ole! i kinda miss your overly-exaggerated stories, especially now that i'm away.. i still have the same ym, leave somethin' for me there okie?

see you soon! =D

Uhhh.... dumbfounded.

2007-10-03T20:39:00.000+08:00

Tell me what you think about this story...

THE DUMB MAN by Sherwood Anderson

There is a story.--I cannot tell it.--I have no words. The story is almost forgotten but sometimes I remember.

The story concerns three men in a house in a street. If I could say the words I would sing the story. I would whisper it into the ears of women, of mothers. I would run through the streets saying it over and over. My tongue would be torn loose--it would rattle against my teeth.

The three men are in a room in the house. One is young and dandified. He continually laughs.

There is a second man who has a long white beard. He is consumed with doubt but occasionally his doubt leaves him and he sleeps.

A third man there is who has wicked eyes and who moves nervously about the room rubbing his hands together. The three men are waiting-- waiting.

Upstairs in the house there is a woman standing with her back to a wall, in half darkness by a window.

That is the foundation of my story and everything I will ever know is distilled in it.

I remember that a fourth man came to the house, a white silent man. Everything was as silent as the sea at night. His feet on the stone floor of the room where the three men were made no sound.

The man with the wicked eyes became like a boiling liquid--he ran back and forth like a caged animal. The old grey man was infected by his nervousness--he kept pulling at his beard.

The fourth man, the white one, went upstairs to the woman.

There she was--waiting.

How silent the house was--how loudly all the clocks in the neighborhood ticked. The woman upstairs craved love. That must have been the story. She hungered for love with her whole being. She wanted to create in love. When the white silent man came into her presence she sprang forward. Her lips were parted. There was a smile on her lips.

The white one said nothing. In his eyes there was no rebuke, no question. His eyes were as impersonal as stars.

Down stairs the wicked one whined and ran back and forth like a little lost hungry dog. The grey one tried to follow him about but presently grew tired and lay down on the floor to sleep. He never awoke again.

The dandified fellow lay on the floor too. He laughed and played with his tiny black mustache.

I have no words to tell what happened in my story. I cannot tell the story.

The white silent one may have been Death.

The waiting eager woman may have been Life.

Both the old grey bearded man and the wicked one puzzle me. I think and think but cannot understand them. Most of the time however I do not think of them at all. I keep thinking about the dandified man who laughed all through my story.

If I could understand him I could understand everything. I could run through the world telling a wonderful story. I would no longer be dumb.

Why was I not given words? Why am I dumb?

I have a wonderful story to tell but know no way to tell it.

A secret...

2007-09-07T07:23:00.000+08:00

I am nowhere near perfect. I fall easily. And I'm vulnerable to believing lies. I'm hoping that one day I wont need a fake smile. I live by stories and quotes that explain exactly how i feel... I make up excuses for everything. I find it hard to fit in to this normal life, cause the truth is, no matter how hard i try... i really am just not normal like you. So don't tell me off or dismiss me even if i get too EMOtional. It's a burden i'll get to keep for the rest of my life. Don't blame me even for the person that i've become. I simply just do not feel the need to comply for my social status. The way i see it, people do nothing but follow a specific path set for them, conquering not only their thoughts but their dreams, their entire being, grabbing hold of their future. You say i cower before responsibilites, That i am weak and should be eliminated, i say you're a coward before the truth. Being passionate is not being a coward, and sure as hell not like you.

Beautiful.

2007-08-27T11:16:00.000+08:00

"Nobody Dies a Virgin cause in the end, Life Fucks us All."

-Krizel del Prado

Hahahaha! =D

I AM...

2007-08-25T14:03:00.000+08:00

Caught in my own trap. I refuse to believe so, but i'm afraid i really am... yup! all on my own doing.

I isolated myself from certain people whom i considered (maybe still) have the potential of inflicting pain on me, for all these years, i have considered myself so fragile, so vulnerable to any pain, that i always end up chickening out, deep fried.

Though at the end of it all, i still choose to fight and stand up, i still couldn't deny the damage that that fear constantly leaves.

Just finished another book, read it for almost 3 days, thinking and absorbing this non-writer-yet-best-selling-author's thoughts and views. for someone like him, i actually found his work very impressive. although within the book, you could really see flaws on his writing style and everything, but i still tried to focus on his message.

I suddenly found this very powerful urge in me to run free without compromising any of my responsibilities and obligations, the way he did.

He outsmarted life, he played with life's rules and gained from it, BIG TIME! People like him are my heroes. He answered a lot of questions in my head without lies, without compromise, without hurting anybody and most importantly without losing. He won it all. Now all he do is travel with his wife in early retirement, discovering more about life than any of his fellowmen on his age. Idol ko siya. =)

So... what do i do now? I will be like him -- well, in Time. hehe. =)

dogs and gays. :)

2007-08-03T09:38:00.000+08:00

we went out yesterday, (well nothing really new since we do it almost everyday) then we saw this man selling dogs. :) and guess what? we bought not only one but two dogs! haha! we bought a st.bernard-labrador breed (girl), and a chow-chow (a boy). we named the labrador "gia". and the chow2 "homer". haha! our very own 'spider-dog' haha! :)

anyway, after bringing the dogs home, we went to seaside (macapagal's dampa) and ate sea food! yuumm! :) then there was a stand-up comedy show on a little stage there in between the restaurants which was hosted by two gays. haha! they pulled Jason up on stage to sing! haha! and he sang in public! bwahahaha! :D he sang "Only reminds me of you". and while he was 'performing this gay is like singing Jason's name in an orgasmic tune. haha! that was harassment man! haha!:)

i really enjoyed that! haha! tonight, we go out to embassy with friends. see you guys later. :)

My 20 Things...

2007-08-01T17:54:00.000+08:00

an idea i've had from nikki and nica's multiply. :)

1.thank you so much for everything. i'm so lucky to have you.

2.i thought you were different. you proved me wrong.

3.i wish we had the chance to get to know each other better.

4.you're a really nice friend. thank you for keeping it real.

5.i may have always been denying this, but deep down, i've never hoped anything more than to spend a lot of time with you.

6.please be more patient with me.

7.i'm sorry for everything.

8.i admire you, because your life is close to perfect.

9.i wish i had the chance to see your face.

10.when we see each other in heaven, please, tell me you know who i am.

11.i just wished you could've had a better life than that.

12.you are lucky.

13.you're scary. people actually don't know what you thnk of them. a little honesty please.

14.don't blame me for something i never did.

15.i hate you so much.

16.i hope you're not turning into "me".

17.please lead me back to you.

18.only you could help me.

19.i think it's partially my fault why...

20.i just wish i don't feel this way around you.

"When the Heart speaks, the mind finds it indecent to object."

2007-07-25T10:35:00.000+08:00

"When the Heart speaks, the mind finds it indecent to object."

KITSCH - a folding screen set up to curtain off death... -MILAN KUNDERA

The perfect term to describe the world intentionally looking beyond the invisible visible, thus describing it as the world of grinning idiots.

Well, what is this invisible visible thing that the world neglects anyway? It's the unintelligible truth... veiled. A very beautiful lie.

How is the world a liar? Where is the world lying exactly? It lies to the very essence of being... of existence.

But what is the basis of being? God? Mankind? Struggle? Love? Man? Woman?

It has been said that the enemy of kitsch is the person who asks questions, for a question is like a knife that slices through the stage backdrop and gives us a look of what lies behind it.

-(lifted from The Unbearable Lightness of Being)

Questions makes the mind undoubtedly gain wisdom, in the sense that it allows you to ask some more. What's really surprising is that asking these questions were not even caused by the mind, but because of one's desire to be freed. In other words, these questions people impose to stab through that very powerful curtain is caused by none other than spiritual rage... The kind which imprisons the heart to go wondering about, thus, losing one's sanity, transforming people into a mindless, lifeless being.

After everything, that person subconsciously transformed would no longer have the energy to mingle into society, cursing his social obligations and putting an end to his earthly life.

I'm not yet dead... I'm still fighting, because i know that one day i'd realize that putting a hole into that curtain's not worth a single outgoing breath. :)

a secret (2)

2007-07-23T07:44:00.000+08:00

UNCHAIN

set me free

make me breathe

let my limbs move into motion

dawn on me resolution

FLY

let me reach unto the clouds

that i may feel deprived no more

as to feel the sun set upon my face

the air feel the lungs in me

CONSOLE

the longing i have felt

this heart in me now screams

"I am formally withdrawing thy self from conformity. Let me feel that I am formidable, that I may not easily break but bent if necessary. Reaching the realm of certainty, it'll tell me I've come in contact with my own senses, not demanded upon, freedom not compromised. From now on, if possible, I'll become less attached from the social world that used to caged me in and make me feel that I am prone to break. I'll spread my arms wide out and let my senses take their toll that at my greatest capacity I may feel strong."

a secret...

2007-07-22T08:18:00.000+08:00

I am nowhere near perfect. I fall easily. And I'm vulnerABLE to believing lies. I'm hoping that one day I wont need a fake smile. I live by quotes that explain exactly what I am going through. I make up excuses for everything. I have only related memories...

Ode To My Family

2007-07-16T17:09:00.000+08:00

Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
D'you see me, d'you see
Do you like me. Do you like me standing there
D'you notice, d'you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care
Unhappiness, where's when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh he liked me, does anyone care

Understand what I've become
It wasn't my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you. I miss
'Cause I liked it. I liked it
When I was out there
D'you know this, d'you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care

Unhappiness was when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh me liked me, does anyone care

Does anyone care

Poor son... :)

2007-07-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

Joke daw to...

Minamahal naming Anak,

Naipada la ko na 50 thousand pesos na tuition fee mo,
pinagbili na namin ang mga kalabaw natin.

Ang mahal pala ng kursong COUNTER STRIKE, wala na din
pala tayong baboy naibenta na din para dun sa sinasabi
mo na project nyo na NOKIA N75, ang mahal naman ng
project na yun. kasama din ang 7 thousand dun para sa
field trip nyo sa MALL OF ASIA, anak malayo ba yun
mag-ingat ka sa pagbibiyahe mo, isasanla pala namin
ang palayan natin para mabili mo nag yung
instrumentong I-POD na kinakailangan mo sa laboratory
nyo.

Anak komportavle ka ba dyan sa boarding house mo,saan
ba kamo yan sa VICTORIA COURT - maganda ba dyan di ba
mainit dyan. Anak kamusta na pala yung group project
nyo na SANMIG LIGHT napailaw nyo na ba?
mataas ba nakuha nyo na grado dun.

Anak sana bago pa maubos ang lahat lahat ng ari-arian
natin ay maka gradweyt kana, walong taon ba talaga ang
kurso mo sa SECRETARIAL, sana pag graweyt mo makakuha
ka ng trabaho kaagad kagaya ng manager ng
kumpanya para mabawi natin ang mga ari arian nating sa
sanglaan.

Ay cya nga pala anak diba sabi mo sa JOLLIBEE / MAK
DONALD ka palagi kumakain ok ba naman sa yo ang mga
ulam dyan baka hindi masarap kawawa ka naman.Eh
yung school bus nyo na TAXI sabihin mo sa driver mag
ingat cya sa pag dri-drive.

Anak hanggang dito na lang at sa susunod ay ipapadala
ko sa yo ang pera na pambili mo ng ALTIS na gagamitin
mo sa VACANT SUBJECT mo.

Ang nagmamahal,

Itang at Inang

P.S.

Anak mag aral kang mabuti. Ingatan mo katawan mo.Huwag
ka muna mag-aasawa. Ikaw lang ang pag-asa namin para
mahango tayo s kahirapan.

*tsk! tsk! tsk!*

Who?

2007-06-23T18:43:00.000+08:00

I was given something that made me really really happy. i feel so excited that i want to share it to everyone. The problem is, i just don't know who to share the excitement with. *sigh*

Me and Jay are happy. i just hope that others could be too, for us.

God gave it to me cause He thinks i'm ready. and He wants me to finally be happy. He wants me to be happy. I don't care what others would think. All i know is, somehow, i think i deserve it. :)

I'm running away.

We're getting married.

For those who feel sincerely happy for us, Thank you for smiling. :) You're invited!

2007-06-23T18:40:00.000+08:00

"Art is either plagiarism or revolutionary" -Fortune Mag

Can it be defined any better?

"There is a fine line between Passion and Insanity" -Anon

Says who???

Insanity is known to be a revolution against social norms. It's beauty made itself so famous that almost everyone actually rejected it. Haha.

To create art, there should be PASSION. Insanity fuels it. Without both, an art can never be revolutionary. Without Insanity, there can never be a passion great enough to create art. Passion couldn't have existed without insanity. After all, has anyone normal ever created something with passion? No one.

pictures.

2007-06-12T16:05:00.000+08:00

Thanks to:

http://postsecret.blogspot.com

and someone's blog.

Clear your vision. :)

2007-06-06T18:21:00.000+08:00

"To make the invisible visible, make it invisible."

Personally, i think not for everyone.

There are just some people who gets too much neglection that they might not have existed at all. :)

2007-06-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

We just had this crazy trip to tagaytay this morning. Actually last night pa. Haha! walang tulugan... walang driver... walang money... haha! We went to Highlands kanina, walang magawa. natatawa na nga lang ako.

Anyways, i think blogging is actually stupid. to publicize your personal thoughts, and worst, your feelings... we all know that people may not really agree with you, about what you feel, about everything that you say in your posts, about what you think... but, here we all are. getting used to acting so imperviously with everything, stretching that extra mile and taking the big risk of getting so massively condemned or cursed just so you could post that very thing that you think.. the thing that you believe in, just so you could show the whole world that you are beyond what you seem.

i find everything so pointless...

and yet here i am...

the Hate-charm

2007-05-21T20:07:00.000+08:00

the Hate-charm

i must be really lucky! haha! to be unanimously hated by people who used to call you 'friend'.

The Hate-charm or The Anti-charm as i call it, was bestowed to me to introduce the feeling of hatred to people. haha! this is old news anyway, who am i kidding?

well, i just thought that maybe it really is a lot easier to hate me than to know who i am and how i feel. it is way easier for anyone to hate me than to ask me for my side of the story or even just to look at me. haha! bakit kaya ganun noh? i'm not really that much affected you know. quite frankly, i felt more disappointed. cause i used to walk side by side with these people, and now, they won't even ask me, bout how i feel, bout what i think... some friends huh??

fellas, if you have people like these as FRIENDS, all it takes is for you to make one silly mistake, then it will all end. come to think of it, what was it that i did really? that i wasn't able to come? that i got mad when they asked me very insulting questions? that they felt that i was bragging about being perfect? that i said things they can't handle? what was it? in the first place, if they really are friends, they never should've talked about it in my back, they should've asked me first, and they should've believed me the very first time i've explained things to them.

basta ang alam ko WALA AKONG KASALANAN.

so, i'm going to leave you guys. may you be happy with each other. GOOD LUCK!! hahahahahahaha!!!! oh yes! FREEDOM!!!! whooohoooooo!!! yeah!!!

as i've said, i see things differently. rarely do i find people who really understand how i feel, or what i think or what i want. actually, sanay na ko mamis-understood, and i usually do not care, but this time, nanghihinayang lang ako, sayang. i thought you guys are different. di pala. haha! i guess, i was wrong.

same kind of people. same old story.
i don't give a damn anymore.
maybe they would be happier hating me. haha! since that's what people with no brains do. just hate and hate and hate and talk and talk and laugh and jump around like monkeys without even thinking. (oops!)
i wouldn't be surprised actually if they hate someone within them soon.
haha! sayang kayo. tsk. tsk. i actually thought that you people are using your brains. ang galing niyo kasi sa kung ano anong pagsasalita o ano pa man kapag nag-uusap tayo. di ba nga kaya tayo naging 'friends' to avoid people like..... YOU? haha! naku! ganun din naman pala kayo! haha! naman.

anyway, i don't think any of them have the guts to send their REACTIONS to me. bakit? too afraid? haha! ilan ulit kayo? tapos natatakot pa kayo? come on guys! DO YOUR WORST!!

i am waiting. :)

Hahahaha!!! :D

2007-05-15T03:02:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha!!! :D

just re-read my last entry, haha! gawd! i sounded like psychedelic lesbo! haha!
and it's too late. a lot of people viewed it already... well, i kinda felt uneasy, making my thoughts too public (darn the blogger-multiply cross-posting shit!), since only selected friends know my blog address. is it possible to turn that cross-posting thing off? help please.

anyways, i was about to delete it na, when i saw the viewing history of the entry. hahahaha!
shet! too late! haha! maybe they thought i was a weirdo. haha. :)

well, i really can't reveal who i was talkin bout and why, but maybe some of you have a clue..?
who knows? that person might be you! hehe.

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2007-05-13T19:22:00.000+08:00

Wtf is wrong with me??

Why did i even have to look??!!?? Why do i always have to look?????
My God, you look so perfect!
And i already know that!
But why did i still take a look???

OMG glecy you're so freakin' stupid! what? you think this time you could at least feel good about yourself when you see her? you think it would change anything? do you really think that you could be better than HER even on just one single freakin' thing?? naman.

She's a f**kin' goddess! you're the anti-goddess!
She's a beautiful princess! you'll always be the anti-princess!
She's everything you're not!
She's everything you will always hope you'd be!

What's the matter with you? Why can't you resist it?
It even made everything worse!
The sight of her broke your heart,
And up until now, you still can't find any cure.
But you still keep on looking!
Nothing's left of you now.
Nothing's left except for that empty space once occupied by 'you'
And i know, you will still look for her.
It won't end until you're cured.
The dream, the heartache will never end.
For you keep on hurting your own damn self.

What's wrong with me!!! aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

Shoot me now, please. please.

Why do you have to be so perfect ba kasi?
Why???? Tapos gusto mo pa ko makita??
Naman. naman. naman!!!

I surrender. Anyone of you takes garbage? Kunin nyo na ko.

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2007-05-10T18:03:00.000+08:00

Brand new PSP, laptops, cellphones for sale on low prices!

lemme know if you're interested. :)

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2007-05-03T20:16:00.000+08:00

...(Part 2)

Everyone seems to be claiming the 'emo' title now a days. like if you say that you're it, you would feel on top of everybody else, like you're better than those who are 'normal', or those who say that they are like you but you think they really aren't cause you think that you're the only one who could understand that freaking unbearable emptiness that drowns you every single day. which is funny, you know. i thought what i was feeling then, when i was still in high school, was just a phase everyone gets to experience. then, as i was observing everybody else, talking to them generally about life itself, it's like the only thing they cared about was their lovelives, and how they think it would make them grow, or wiser. i never really cared much about those things then, though i admit that i got too hooked up on some people (basically because i'm not normal, and that i was too sensitive to everything, but i can really say that it's not love, that it's just an intense feeling of longingness for something no one on earth could know... dami kong sinabi, nakakasira ng momentum.)ok, so where was i? so yeah, they think that love quotes, love songs, love shits make them feel so matured in the head, like every song they hear was made for them, every love quote was made to enlighten them or to give them tips about 'life' and all that shit. and i was like 'am i the only one who thinks that all of these is just bullshit?! that what they believe and preach others to be enlightening is also just an idea made by some pathetic loser who only cares about having a girlfriend, or whatever?' then, everytime they would put and end to their current relationship, they would get so intensely 'depressed', like they will never get happy or fall in love again, where in fact, when they were still together both of them are looking at everyone as a prospective girlfriend/boyfriend. haha. depression is way more than that. they didn't even know what love means, and they keep on bothering themselves with the loss that they've had, but then, after a few months, they will engage again into a new relationship, thus, feeling so head over heels in-love all over again, and the freaking cycle continues until they get pregnant or get too old to play the 'game'. love isn't a game. in fact, 'lovelife' shouldn't even exist. love is love. that's it. period. what actually makes it so powerful, so beautiful is that it happens to everyone only once. JUST ONCE. nobody seems to get that. and i thought that maybe, soon they will understand, i was just lucky that i had thought about it earlier than they did. most of the time, my thoughts about things are different, even then, that's why i find it so hard to fit in. i thought then that maybe it's because i read too much, or i just felt sad generally about everything that's why i can't seem to get them. so, there were times then that i would prefer to be alone than to blend in with the crowd. and it actually worked for me, you know.

To be misunderstood is the fate of the geniuses. -howard stern

(haha! i-associate daw ba ang sarili sa mga genius! haha! ;p)

Depression is way more than the 'depression' that they know. if you are depressed, you don't need any reason at all to feel sad. it will always stay there with you, waiting to be triggered by actually almost anything even by a dying worm, or a laughing kid, or simply just by staring at the wall. depression IS insanity. emo, sige ipamigay na natin yang word na yan sa mga gusto malungkot, just so they would not associate themselves with depression. depression is depression, emo is... well, feeling sad.

Ok, i think it's now clear. so, let's now talk about 'life' with it. to quote jay "depression is a curse". yup! you are soooo lucky if you are normal. believe me. having it is a battle between the whole world and you. between life and you. between you and you. a coping mechanism (e.g. self-infliction) is necessary to live/extend your life for another day. religious people, teka lang. sige, let's talk about suicide. according to the preachers or ano man ang source nito, suicide is punishable--eternal damnation. ilelechon ka sa impiyerno, pero kahit kelan hindi ka maluluto. ano bang apoy ang nandun?? haha. joke lang. relax. so ayun, depression naman (mostly associated with bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder) is a struggle of oneself, because his/her hormones are not normal, the serotonins, which actually makes people feel certain emotions, are overproduced (o underproduced ata? whichever). one of their symptoms is actually thinking, attempting and commiting suicide. IT IS NOT THEIR CHOICE. it was given to them. that's why it was called a psychological disorder not a moral or spiritual disorder, they even need meds to control their moods. it is totally UNBEARABLE. therefore, i think, God knows that they would actually do it! it may even be his own will for them to do it because he's the one who gave it to them, and he has his own reasons, maybe for the purpose of showing beauty in the world, or whatever.

Stats: 100% of depressed people think about suicide. 96% actually attempted it, and almost 90% of them died in suicide.

To those who actually lived or those who didn't die in suicide, most probably they got killed because of drunk-driving. haha! di, seriously, it is more of luck. as madame cariaso said (i will never forget that very inspiring woman) : the church may lay down the laws, but only God knows the human heart. (and that phrase was actually made by of course someone who is also suffering from depression. it was published in his novel, (i forgot the title na) about a girl who got tired of everything, and in the end committed suicide. and the phrase was mentioned in the book by a priest. :) i have to find that book!

Thanks to these geniuses, there was a monalisa, a starry starry night, the fifth, the cave, socrates, and a million other more that inspired the whole world for centuries. the madness that was given to them drives them to create something that is far too beautiful that only our souls could fathom. only our unblinded souls could ever understand. only those who have chosen to see. probably, only you and me. :)

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2007-04-28T15:04:00.000+08:00

Evolution.

Defining self-injury

Self-injury is an expression of acute psychological distress. It is an act done to oneself, by oneself, with the intention of helping oneself rather than killing oneself. Paradoxically, damage is done to the body in an attempt to preserve the integrity of the mind. -internet

Self-injury is more than just self-loathing, Ironically, it's self-restoration, self-healing.
Inflicting on one's self stills down the crosscurrents of worry, Drawing to focus the dark grotesque thoughts of misery, Intersecting those thoughts with the soul's hopeless condition
at that exact moment. Self-inflicted pain is one of the few anchors the human condition allows us to cope with its torments. -my friend's journal

"Madness fuels creativity. ...." -a musician to Beethoven

Depression,
An inescapable curse
It is a life-long rebellion,
A wild revolt against yourself.
It's a shameful obsession,
Contemplating, Dreaming of dying
Living in oblivion
To pretend to smile, and then run crying.
It's a state of being without passion,
A condition of soul being hollow
For us there is only one season,
A never-ending season of sorrow. -written by someone 'depressed'

depression is one with insanity. to say that you are depressed or emo as it is now known, you also should be aware that you most probably are insane.

~unfinished
picture: Thet's left arm (with cuts), well actually i never really knew she was doing it coz she doesn't look like the type who does it, but heck, now we all know. i just hope she's not just trippin, cause that would be the other kind of 'insanity'. come to think of it, she might be that, haha! creepy. please don't unleash that side of her especially when she's holding something she can stab us with. haha!
poem, journal entry: Jason Rusty. :) love this guy! hmm... i wonder why.

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2007-04-27T15:37:00.000+08:00

Let Me Fall

It's October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year's come and gone
And nothing's changed at all
Wasn't I supposed to be someone
Who can face the things that I've been running from...

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...

I've become much too good at being invincible
I'm an expert at play it safe, and keep it cool
But I swear this isn't who I'm meant to be
I refuse to let my life roll all over me...

I wanna be somebody who can face the things that I've been running from

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived...

It's October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year's come and gone
And nothing's changed at all

wala lang. i remembered the song this morning, and since then, it won't stop on playing over and over in my head. LSS. it's like our brains have micro-ipods, and only you can hear it. i probably pressed the repeat button on mine accidentally. haha! can anyone please tell me how to turn it off? :)

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2007-04-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

it takes one to know one. :)

you know, i used to like this certain someone, but, things do change. iba pala sya (tagalog para walang gender). i thought that that person is different, na kung mag-isip sya eh hindi arrogant and conceited, kaso self-centered pala. i thought na sya yung type who listens and appreciates even the flaws of other people like a god who looks at the deeper side of everything. di pala, sobrang baliktad. keeps on watching out for the opportunity to say the words poser, liar, baduy, stupid, social-climber.... marami pa. i'm not judging that person naman, i just heard it sa kanya. wala lang. though the one he/she's telling to wasn't me, but you know, it really is not for anyone to judge anybody, so yun, disappointed lang ako. it takes one to know one di ba? yan tuloy, baka ganun din kasi sya noh? tsk.

anyway, i believe in the saying: Be who you are, say what you have to say; cause the ones who MATTER DOESN'T MIND, and the ones who MIND DOESN'T MATTER.
soooo, i have liberated my thoughts and let my mind speak freely. but then, you know, a lot of people don't understand that. they often get so intimidated by my frankness. it's a good thing that i have jay, because he is not only the best listener, but the best thinker and adviser that i know. i am so lucky to have him.

i admire those people who can care to hate. but only because no matter how bad people gets, hatred never comes to me. fear and pain overcomes it all the time. i can't stay mad at one person for like a whole day, and most of the time i just cry inside. i am too weak to hate. too weak. just like what happened yesterday. the only thing that i did was cry.

death is living beside me. it takes everyone away from me. why? haven't i suffered enough? never did i complain about the kind of life that was given to me, i continued living my life as if nothing is wrong, where in fact, everything in my life is so wrong. it's like i really don't have a choice in life, like i was created to just obey and obey and not to make my own life. i feel so useless.... so helpless... in 5 years time, my sister will be gone, like she was never really meant to exist, like she was just a big mistake. she would die, JUST LIKE THAT.

but you know what? i envy her. i envy my sister's life. the art of her ending, the art of her death is so wonderful. i think she deserves that. she deserves to have a sweet ending. she doesn't have to think anymore of whether she should end her own life or not, she deserves way better than that. she deserves to be happy, and soon enough, she will be.

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2007-04-20T14:53:00.000+08:00

Paalam.

"wag kang lumipad, wala ka pang pakpak."

Kailangan ba na ang tao ay may pakpak para lumipad? Kung gayon nga ay, kailan ba masasabing ang tao ay mayroon nang mga pakpak? o baka naman ang ibig nitong sabihin ay huwag kang lumipad? bakit? paano mo ba masasabing ang taong iyon ay lumilipad? masama ba ang paglipad? bakit kailangan na siya ay pigilan kung ito naman ang makakapagpalaya sa kanya? o baka naman ika'y naiinggit o naiinis dahil ikaw ay kanya nang naiwan sa lupa? bakit ayaw mo nang paglipad? ayaw mo bang maging malaya? hindi kita maintindihan. hindi ko rin maintindihan ang mga taong nagkuwento sayo kaya't ika'y nakapagsalita ng ganyan. hindi ko kayong lahat maintindihan.

"minsan lang yan tumapak sa lupa."

bakit? saan lang ba dapat nakalugar ang isang tao? ang tao ba ay ginawa lamang para sa lupa? marahil ay nakaramdam ka nang kaunting pagmamataas. ngunit paano? ano nga ba ang basehan mo nang pagmamataas? ang tao bang malaya ay mapagmataas? ang tao bang tapat sa kanyang kalooban ay mapagmataas? ang tao bang pinalaya ang kanyang dila sa pananalita ay mapagmataas? ang tao bang tumakas sa lupa ay mapagmataas? bakit? o marahil ay hindi mo natanggap ang katotohanang kanyang nasabi sa iyo. ano nga ba ang kanyang nasabi? ito ba ay laban sa iyo? o ito ay dala lamang ng intimidasyon? hindi kita maintindihan. hindi ko rin maintindihan ang mga taong pinagkuwentuhan mo kaya't lumakas ang loob mong magsalita ng isang bagay na hindi mo nalalaman. hindi ko kayong lahat maintindihan.

hindi ko man maintindihan, ito lamang ang masasabi ko...... hindi ako bababa sa lupa dahil lamang sa mga nasabi nyo. kung nalalaman nyo lamang ang kagandahan ng katotohanan na aking nakita sa kalangitan. ang katotohanan sa likod ng paglipad na malalaman sa pakikinig sa sarili ninyong mga puso't kaluluwa. hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kailangan ang panghuhusga sa mga taong hindi naman ninyo maintindihan. hindi ko na alam ang dapat pang sabihin, ngunit masaya ako. sana lamang ay hindi sa ganito matapos ang lahat lahat sa atin, pagkat minsan ko din kayo nakasama sa aking paglalakbay. ngunit, gayunpaman, ako'y nagpapaalam na sa inyo. paalam sa inyo. sana matagpuan niyo din ang ninanais nang inyong mga puso. :)

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2007-04-16T20:05:00.000+08:00

Geezzz...

i cried today... in public! gawd! that was so unexpected. what did happen? i don't know either. i just lost ground. whooo! so sorry for everyone who saw me. grrr! i was so embarassed, not that i really mind to be seen crying, it's just that when it is in public, you know, it's different. have you ever felt that? that uncontrollable burstful feeling? when the moment gets so intense, everything gets so dark and vague, everyone's voice starts to fade slowly and you get so caught up in the moment, the emotion, and you just, you know, Cry? sigh! well, today was my lucky day. it happened to me not only once, not even twice, but 3 times. grrr...

and now i know, you are all wondering, what could've happened to glecy that made her cry like a grown up baby in front of an ass-filled audience? well, the answer is........ (drums rolling).....

i almost got kicked out of school because of Philosophy. yup! that's it. impossible huh? i myself couldn't believe it the first time, because as far as i know i have submitted the requirements, and i was quite confident of my exams. the teacher even showed it to me 57% out of 60%. so what went wrong? Quizzes. the freaking girl who's supposed to keep our quiz papers lost ALL of my quizzes. she claimed that she never had mine. the professor would like to believe that i have submitted my quiz papers but it was too late. my grades were already encoded in the reg's office, and he told me that i have no evidence at hand. so.... my grades were wrecked. and all i could do was cry. to think that it was my favorite subject! grrr! i was (is still) mad at that freaking freckled moon-faced wannabe. raarrrr!!! i hope she would keep her distance from me, or else... i'll get B1 and B2 and shove them up to her ass both at the same time! you almost ruined my life you lousy crazy stupid son of a B***!!! oh, if only i could get my hands on you.... hooo! wait lang... relaks.... wooosah... wooosah... wooosah... wooosah... ayan, ok na ko. :) i learned that woosah chant from bad boys2. effective. try nyo. :)

i did what i can, but as Ai ai delas alas said in her very very cute new movie, "malas e. alam mo ba yung salitang malas?" anyway, in the end, i still had my summer enrollment done, and now i'll just have to wait on the worst thing that could happen to me. I wish i still know how to pray. huhu... God Help me... :'(

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2007-04-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

Merci!

My friend Vincent posted this in our yahoogroups just this day:

lisez les phrases suivantes!
Bonjour mes compagnons, c'est Vincent ici. De toute façon, si vous necomprenez pas la langue, ben, c'est française. Alors premièrement, jeveux vous rencontrer encore. J'espére ça, d'accord? Je suis rendrecompte de, personne n'écrit pas un message ici. Et je pense, c'esttrès mauvais. vous savez quoi? J'ai appris que nous devons continuernos bonnes communications. Oui, oui c'est vrai. Vous devez me croire!Je ne blague pas avec vous. Donc, vous écrivez ici aussi s'il vousplait. Avec que, nous pouvons savoir les nouveaux avec nous. Et jepense, nous savons ça. On doit continuer quel nous avons commencéavant. Je vais écrire, vous allez écrire aussi, d'accord? Je pense, iln'y a pas de problème avec ça. Ben si vous ne comprenez pas vraiment,allez, demandez moi. Ce n'est pas de problème, cela ne se demande pas.Et aussi, n'oubliez pas se consulter un traducteur, d'accord? il peutvous aider beaucoup, bien sûr mais vous ne devez pas se fier toujoursça. Mes amis, répondez s'il vous plait! Merci et bonne journée.J'espére vous revoir bientôt. grosses bises!

which 'literally' means:

read the following sentences!
Hello my companions, it is Vincent here. In any event, if you
do not understand the language, Ben, it is French. Then firstly, I
want to still meet you. I hope that, of agreement? I am to give
an account of, nobody does not write a message here. And I think, they are
very bad. you know what? I learned that we must continue
our good communications. Yes, yes it is true. You must believe me!
I joke not with you. Therefore, you write here also if you like
it. With, we can know the new ones with us. And I
think, we know that. One must continue which we started
front. I will write, you will also write, of agreement? I think, it
does not have there a problem with that. Ben if you really do not include/understand,
go, ask me. It is not problem, that does not wonder.
And also, do not forget to consult each other a translator, of agreement? it can
help you much, of course but you always do not owe proud
that. My friends, answer please! Thank you and good day.
I hope to re-examine you soon. love and kisses!

i had it translated in the internet. haha. made me laugh reading it. although, i understood what it meant, baduy ko noh? shet. sorry. it really was funny to me. pag natawa kayo, it only means, nakakatawa talaga sya. hahahahaha! :)

uhhm, another thing........ Who's Ben?? :)

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2007-04-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

What's been up
Chapter1
i have got to get a hold on to myself. control. control. control. what am i talking about you ask? it's about a short story starring me, on a dark cold night (i was wearing a matching brown shirt, a lighter brown shorts, and a very light brown slippers, kaya malamig) at eastwood city. when we got bored, we decided to just go home.

[on the way home]
jay: si Gino daw asa Bacolod.
glecy: o? sino-sino sila?
jay: blockmates.
glecy: buti pa sila may summer get-away. tayo kaya kelan?
jay: tara, ngayon na. (smiling, humoring mode)
glecy: di nga? ano? let's go?
jay: cge. saan? (still smiling)
glecy: (starting to get serious) tagaytay? ay hindi, let's go to Baguio nalang.
jay: Baguio?
glecy: oo. Baguio tayo. ano??
jay: cge ba. ano? tara?
glecy: tara.

And so, to Baguio we went. ang gago noh?

we arrived there at around 7:20 in the morning, and since it's just a 5-minute travel, our stomachs growled. so we ate roasted chicken and pork bbq on session road. after that, we went to mines view to buy some souvenirs and some pasalubong for relatives. and then we went to Burnham Park for the boating, and after that to Camp John Hay to play mini-golf. it was so much fun. we went home in the afternoon, we could've stayed but since it was just on impulse, we didn't bring enough money. too bad. it's all good, but the bad thing is, we also weren't able to bring a camera, so we only have cellphone pictures. too bad (again).

Chapter2
i visited my friend Bianca's blog, and read the line "I WOKE UP TODAY AND I FELT ALIVE". i scrolled down and again read another interesting line "I LOVE PHILOSOPHY". sounds familiar?

maybe that's why we became friends, our hearts understood each other.
another thing is, maybe because we both love philosophy.
that's a shout out to all of you guys, you shouldn't dare go deeper into philosophy. YOU WILL GET LOST just like bianca and me. BEWARE.

Chapter3
i'm still not done with my summer enrollment. my midterm grade for NSTP is missing. shet. i'm tired of going back and again to school. grrr.... it's not my fault anyway, it's theirs. so they better get their asses on to work my grades out. aba. nagbabayad ako ng tuition no! :)

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2007-04-08T17:03:00.000+08:00

♥ HAPPY 9 MONTHS!!! ♥

it's just like yesterday when... (cheeeesssyyyy!)
i just feel so positive about this. like there are still so many things that would happen to us. like i'm a hundred percent sure that it would never end. hay! dream, girl!

anyways, summer classes would start at 16, and enrollment is on 13. yup. no breaks for glecy.. hoohoo!

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2007-04-08T16:23:00.000+08:00

Something i really need to share (with Sassa's courtesy. haha.:p)

English Movies You Should Never Translate to Tagalog

1. black hawk down - ibong maitim sa ibaba

2. dead man's chest - dodo ng patay

3. i know what you did last summer - uyy... aminin!

4. love, actually - sa totoo lang, pag-ibig

5. million dollar baby - 50 million pisong sanggol (it depends
on the exchange rate of the country)

6. the blair witch project - ang proyekto ng bruhang si blair

7. mary poppins - si mariang may putok

8. snakes on a plane - nag-ahasan sa ere

9. the postman always rings twice - ang kartero kapag dumutdot
laging dalawang beses

10. sum of all fears - takot mo, takot ko, takot nating lahat

11. swordfish - talakitok

12. pretty woman - ganda ng lola mo

13. robin hood, men in tights - si robin hood at ang mga felix
bakat

14. four weddings and a funeral - kahit 4 na beses ka pang
magpakasal, mamamatay ka rin

15. the good, the bad and the ugly - ako, ikaw, kayong lahat

16. harry potter and the sorcerer's stone - adik si harry,
tumira

ng shabu

17. click - isang pindot ka lang

18. brokeback mountain - may nawasak sa likod ng bundok ng
tralala /bumigay sa bundok

19. the day of the dead - ayaw tumayo (ng mga patay)

20. waterworld - basang-basa

21. there's something about mary - may kwan sa ano ni maria

22. employee of the month - ang sipsip

23. resident evil - ang biyenan

24. kill bill - kilitiin sa bilbil

25. the grudge - lintik lang ang walang ganti

26. nightmare before christmas - binangungot sa noche buena

27. never been kissed - pangit kasi

28. gone in 60 seconds - 1 round, tulog

29. the fast and the furious - ang bitin, galit

30. too fast, too furious - kapag sobrang bitin, sobrang galit

31. dude, where's my car - dong, anong level ulit tayo nag-park?

32. beauty and the beast - ang asawa ko at ang nanay nya

33. the lord of the rings - ang alahero

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2007-04-03T14:55:00.000+08:00

my blog is under construction -- a bloody one.

anyway, i've been busy-ing myself with Milan Kundera for the past week, (if i'm not out of the house i mean), and i was fascinated with myself (??) because some, well actually most, of the things that he wrote there are actually the exact same thing with what's been going on in my mind for like months now. everything that he wrote there is so true. if you guys whant to know what i'm talking about, find and read his book:
"THE UNBEARABLE LIGHTNESS OF BEING".

Anyways, 5 days nalang, 9th month anniversary na namin ni Jay. Woah.
tagal na pala.:)

Sorry for the mess in my blog, i'm tamad pa to fix it eh.. hehe..

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2007-03-11T02:32:00.000+08:00

i miss my self. i miss being the old, joyful me. i miss the feeling of being alive. come to think of it, have i really felt that? being alive? or is it just an idea i've been carrying all these years? have i really lived at all? just now, i've realized that my life is just a big waste. a big fucking waste. it doesn't matter now anyways. just have to play with it.

woah. how fitting. the song Unwell just played. i guess i'll just post the lyrics.

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold onFeeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind...

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2007-03-07T16:45:00.000+08:00

just updated my pro on frendster, maybe just to post anything here that would make some sense into anybody who could understand, i copied it here.

--The debate was wearing me out. Once you've posed that question, it won't go away. I think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won't.

--When you're sad, you need to hear your sorrow structured into sound.

--Whatever we call it - mind, character, soul - we like to think we possess something that is greater than the sum of our neurons and that animates us.

--It's a long way from not having enough serotonin to thinking the world is "stale, flat and unprofitable"; even further to writing a play about a man driven by that thought.

--I wasn't convinced I was crazy, thought I feared I was. Some people say that having any conscious opinion on the matter is a sign of sanity, but I'm not sure that's true. I still think about it. I'll always have to think about it.

--This time I read the title of the painting: "Girl Interrupted at Her Music". Interrupted at her music: as my life had been, interrupted in the music of being seventeen, as her life had been, snatched and fixed on canvas: one moment made to stand still and to stand for all the other moments, whatever they would be or might have been. What life can recover from that?

--Why do I keep on indulging myself with my flaws? What are my flaws? What are flaws?

--I know how it feels to be like her, to want to die. To hurt outside trying to kill all the pain in the inside. How you try your best to fit in but you can’t. It’s a special gift that makes you see the truth. The whole world is just so wrong, so crazy, or am I?

--Being crazy means going to the extremes, like making a lie and enjoying it, or wanting to stay a child forever, or neglecting this life of lies and pretensions believing that you are able to see through every masks, props, and acts. Being normal is just getting caught in chains with a maintained smile. does being normal sound so normal at all?

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2007-02-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

BIGFISH.17022007

Anna.Glecy

Glecy.Anna - inside World Trade

tinatamad ako i-flip yung picture. haha. BigFish entrance.

Party.:)

FHM girl.

in the car. tired of dancing.

after yosi break.

glecy. steph. -again, tinamad ako. soree. :)

dancers on-stage.

dance-ing.

car picture. steph.anna.mares.gles.

my own "rock on" version

taba-taba ko na. shet.

mares.anna.gles.

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2007-02-08T18:56:00.000+08:00

dorm. :)

i feel a new life coming. like being in my own sanctuary. the place is awesome, although i pay it with my own money. but still, in there, i feel like i have my own life, like i own me... that's something i never felt before. somehow, i'm starting to feel something for my self. like, i'm starting to like me. like i am somehow worth to have even just a little hug. and for me, just thinking about it, makes me feel human.

the heck. anyway, i just had this crisis with someone very important to me. now, how do i feel? i actually am not sure of the emotion to feel. because choosing between crying and screaming is like not choosing at all. so i just chose to feel nothing. if you're asking if that's possible, then the answer is, YES. you can choose what to feel. but the thing is, your options are not always what you are hoping to have. because, all of these, they really are just there in you, sleeping, ready to be triggered (when you choose to feel it), then that is how you know how to feel, how to react. only few people discover this secret talent of choosing or a much better term would be controlling how you feel. in my case, i never get to have positive options, it's just not present in me. i was born without that feeling. i only recreate other's emotion (happiness) to also know how it feels to be it, but the truth it, i can never feel it on my own, only with someone's help.

now a lot of things have changed. lot of love ones lost or away. there's just so many things that make me feel so sad that i don't know now the real reason why i can't take myself away from this loneliness. like its a shadow exclusively made to be with me forever. just thinking about these things makes me hate myself more.

worse: knowing and hearing that others hate me. it just makes me hate myself more than ever. with what just happened to me, i don't know now how the hell i'm gonna tell the others i'm still ok, because i'm now worse than ever -- rotting on my own, drinking and drowning on my own dose of pain. please take me.. please someone hold me.. please save me...

hoooo. stupid me. asking for help here. haha. alam ko naman na ang nagbabasa lang dito ay ako ako at ako lang. i guess i really am alone. i always will be.

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2007-02-04T12:00:00.000+08:00

currently listening to: Someday - Nina

i feel so lonely. i don't know why. maybe i just have so many reasons to feel sad.

minsan, pag sobra sobra na yung dumarating sakin, lagi kong naiisip na cguro ako yung taong ginawa na walang karapatan maging masaya. and thinking that way is much much better than hoping, begging to be happy and just get too much disappointment in the end. i just feel like i could disappear right here, right now, and no one would even give a damn. i feel so alone.

i'm scared. we just found out that my sister have this connective tissue disease called <>LUPUS, which is the latin word for wolf. the disease has no cure.

we haven't told my mom yet. she can never bare knowing that. may sakit pa sya sa puso. she will never calm down. baka may mangyari pang unexpected. we don't know how the hell are we going to tell her.

i'm scared now. i'm going to lose someone important to me again. pagod na ko mawalan. sometimes you know, i can't help but question why these things have to happen to me -- to us, when some people have all the luck in the world.

why do i have to remind myself all of the time that i exist? why? hindi ba pwedeng nararamdaman ko nman yun? di ba pwedeng maramdaman kong nageexist ako. na talagang merong isang GLECY sa mundo? napapagod na ko malungkot. i feel so tired. i don't want to let go from this knife i'm hanging on to. i don't want to. please don't make me fall again. please. Oh God. i'm so tired of everything...................

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2007-01-28T08:12:00.000+08:00

it's true... just when i needed you most, wala ka. i may be bitter, but i only speak of the truth. nawala na yung matagal nating pinagsamahan, because you're a fucking pretender! you don't know who you are. you keep on pleasing the people YOU NEED, and those PRESENTLY around you. now i know. you were just doing to me the same thing then. anyway, just take care. have a pleasant life. i'll just have to leave everything behind. thank you still, friend.

**sniffles**

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2007-01-22T07:02:00.000+08:00

sorry kung pangit yung iba kong pictures.. puro stolen kasi. nakakainis.

ang taba ko na pala. shet.

anyways, tinatamad ako magkwento, but, i do hope these pictures would give you an idea of what i should be telling though.

haha. laitan time na. go! :)

dairy queen gateway

after gino's

dom=rocker

beer :)

gino, camwhore

gino=bangag

ateneo high F-'05

carlo=lasing + jaypee=abnoy

carlo knock-out. haha.

gino chichioco

cameraman=gino geronilla:

Jason's

biboy

children

children + dyosa

sense-ored. :)

demi.jepz + beer

cleo's fave finger. :)

hulaan mo kung cno yng nka puti.

ang hirap magpost ngayon. nakakainis. feeling ko kulang pa yan. anyway, sana napagtyagaan nyo. cge. tulog na ko. nyt all.

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2007-01-11T08:25:00.000+08:00

English Paper
Jason Joshua Johan V. Rustia

The Piano

With a catatonic stare, she watches the metronome swing back and forth. Following each swing, intently, as if trying to synchronize her heartbeat to it. Slowly…1, 2, 3, ding… 1, 2, 3, ding… it goes on and on, she could stay this way forever. She had been sitting there for almost an hour now, she didn’t mind. Time doesn’t exist to her, not in here. This was her place, nothing and no one could touch her here. She snaps out of her moment of reverie as the smoke started to cause her eyes to sting. She looks at her hand and sees the lit cigarette she had left untouched. The ashes were still hanging, delicately clinging onto it. she slowly brings it to her mouth, afraid to have the ashes scatter all over. She takes a puff, breathes it in, deep into her once healthy and succulent lungs. She savors every substance, as she imagines the smoke make its way inside her body, forming another layer of dark smoky coating, layer over layer of that addictive substance covering her insides. The ashes that has gathered scatters all over, disperses into the air, after she breathes the smoke out of her mouth. She watches as the ashes float in the air freely, they drift and glide in front of her. She was like a little kid watching bubbles float in the air. The ashes fall onto the front part of her shirt, and onto her lap. Absentmindedly, she pouts her lips, and lets air escape her mouth. She blows the ashes off of her. They land on the dull keys, and some on the floor.

Click, click… and then there was only silence. The “ding” never came. She starts to feel anxious, the silence was overwhelming. A scream is trapped in her throat, she could go right now. She could just let herself go and sream and shout and trash around. there is no one to hear her. There is no one who would care. She swallows it down instead, and suppresses her cry. She absentmindedly reaches for the metronome in front of her, in attempt to rewind it, and after hesitating, she withdrew. She has decided. The music that she is desperately searching for, could never be found again. The too familiar feeling of the music that she had once owned and expressed, one so beautifully, that it could be contended that her art was more than even God could lend. The too familiar art begotten enlightenment that has carved and shaped the deepest corners of her soul, now only leaves an indentation, a niche, that she was certain was to be never filled again. Long has passed, and she had not only outplayed herself, but had outplayed music itself, she had outlived life, she had out-created God – the ultimate art. She could already hear her life-long sonata coming to an end in a palpitating rickety decrescendo.

The vast spectrum of colors, of emotions that once were. All these, the noises, the voices, along with the room she is in, the whole world, is now starting to spin. It is spinning, the speed gathering. This must be the final revelation, she must be nearing the end. They’re all spinning now, spinning into a warm soft cloth of peaceful calmness. This must be the end, she had actually dreamed of this. It was surprisingly familiar. The music, the thoughts, the feelings, they were turning dull, but clearer. Everything is darker now, but simpler. Unheard music, muffled thoughts and emotions are now rushing in simultaneously, in an overwhelming rate, but still she couldn’t help but feel becoming complete.

She hadn’t noticed how her fingers were already rolling through the keys. She hadn’t noticed the music she expertly forces out of her instrument. Though it did not sound like it, it did not seem forced, not even close. She was one with the keys, she was one with it all. She was the instrument, and it felt to her, even, that the music, the art is being forced out of her. It is violently squeezed and sucked out of her life, and there is nothing she could do but hold on for dear life.

She was one, she was neither the artist nor the canvas, she was art itself. She is the music, her life, her story, her unheard despair, the voices inside her head, the one that hurls and screams, all these, made her the music.

She is now falling for the art, the art that she had knew well and studiously contemplated ever since she had met with the shadows in the dark corners of her room. If only she could hear the music she is playing now, then maybe, just maybe, she could hold on a little longer. She might be able to resist the effects and fight the poison she has voluntarily ingested just about an hour earlier. Everything’s getting softer and darker now, she could now feel her long awaited peace taking over. The cold calm that is slowly taking over is overwhelming, she is of a different substance now, she could finally escape her prison, and for once be of pure thought, pure light, pure art. It is almost there, and she does not feel the need to say goodbye, for she knows that the art, the love, would never leave, she had just merely left the pain, the misery that she had always thought to have come with the art, the enlightenment. It will now be over and she could be happy.

*i wasn't able to post for a loong time because of the stupid internet jam thing that happened in taiwan which affected poor philippines who can't afford to have its own connection on something for the internet, that's why when some cable was cut or whatever on taiwan, we got jammed too. shet. hassle. and now it's fixed. ok na uli. fuck naman. dapat talaga tayo tawaging 3rd world country. daig pa tayo ng isang country na kasing laki lang ng buong quezon city (exag, i know) but whatever. gnun talaga.

*anyway, bout that story, others can't believe that my dear Jason wrote it. shitheads. galing lang daw sa internet. pffft! sometimes you know, when you do something that is way too good, people can't really accept that it's you, kasi akala nila they know everything about you, your weakness, capabilities, limitations, kasi you are with them all the time. pero bakit yung ibang writer, pag di mo kilala you just give them a two-thumbs up? tsk. people.

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2006-12-22T17:09:00.000+08:00

when you're caught up you desire to claim liberty but then when it's the other way you're searching for something to entangle you..

damn right... funny how simple truths could easily make you feel so uneasy. they stab you upfront and you still keep on blinding yourself from it because you know that the moment you entertain them, the moment you would consider even just one of them, you would be entirely different.

i find it difficult to post an entry here if i'm not on the mood. i do not force it. i never do, because if i force it, then i would be just like everybody else -- so fake. as i've said, this blog doesn't serve as a princess diary or any of the sort, where you would write because at the back of your mind, you know that someone out there is reading and ready to judge, so you make false impressions... you want people to get impressed.

as for me, i type whatever comes on my mind, never did i care about fucking grammar nor did i give a damn about choice of words (badwords, metaphorical words, poetic, etc.). I ONLY WRITE TO EXPRESS, NOT TO IMPRESS. as for the others, maybe this shallowness gives them satisfaction. well, most people actually. they kill themselves unconsciously, because they were never able to find happiness on their true self, and that is just the saddest simple truth that we all neglect. it's something that only sick people do, those who are sick in the head and in the soul. well, maybe everyone needs to have a shrink, because as i can clearly see, eveyone is sick.

always keep everything real.
Happy Holidays to all, and Happy Birthday to me. :)

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2006-12-06T17:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the Christmas party of the companies of Jason's brother (he owns 4 companies) and all the helpers of their big family. the party took place at Jade palace at shaw boulevard. it was fun. the food was really great. :) they also had contests for the employees like dance contests, bring me, and a lot of parlor games that we weren't able to watch because we were late. the prizes were really big. they gave 15T, 12T, 10T, 8T as prizes and also some of the items that they were selling like the magic mic, sauna belt, ref, etc. etc.

i also met a lot of people last night. i finally met Jason's nieces (Tara, Keana, and Jilly) and i think they're really pretty. :) the 3 of them always wear the same clothes wherever they go like triplets. haha. they're so cute. :) i also got introduced to John Estrada. he looks so good. i also met Antonio Aquitania (did i spell it right? whatever.) and a lot of Jay's aunts. i was really nervous at first because they were all looking at me. finally they met the great mysterious girlfriend. blah blah. whatever.

anyways, after the party, i was given a gift (giveaways for the party). i had a touch lamp, fm radio, picture frame, photo album, a plate that looked like a strawberry, and a lot more. it was a big bag filled with a lot of their products and each of us there took one bag home. i really had a great time last night. :) love it! more parties to come. :)

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2006-12-03T12:36:00.000+08:00

Random things...

haha. we've watched some of the ateneo high's filipino projects, where they were required to make a short story or documentary about some topics... the best i've watched is the film "ekstra" (secE-2005), and also the docu "banyo" (i forgot the section). those students were really creative, with the plot, the video editing, the costumes, the themes, everything!... they were really good. :)

anyway, speaking of docu, ANC showed this filipino docu made by the Probe Team about bipolar disorders. i believe to have had that since i was in highschool. this disorder explained a lot. i was really clueless about this disorder when it started. it's like i instantly forgot how i used to be.. like i was so empty. i just watched the world passed me by. i know something's wrong, i was completely changed. i thought it was just because of some culture shock or something. but i never knew that it really is a psychological illness. but i never got worse. i didn't commint self-injury (except probably overeating) because i was so scared of God. i had so many sleepless nights before, where i just lay there in my bed, fully awake and filled with disturbing thoughts. i admit that i have attempted to commit suicide, but it was never successful. and also, why i can't explain my moods. i completely remember myself during highschool where i would just sit down and talk to nobody, or walk alone, leaving my friends. there were also times where i felt really lonely and my friends think that i was really pathetic. i was just there, not minding anybody, so sad, and most of the time on the verge of crying. my heart was so heavy and full of negative emotions. sabi pa nga ng friends ko overly sensitive daw ako. sometimes, i feel so overjoyed. like i was really loud and all. i was really happy. yun daw ang bipolar illness. now i know.

but i am proud of myself. i think i just have the illness but it never really developed because then, i was really close to God. whenever i'm alone, i'd just talk to him and most of the time cry, even on my diaries, i kept on asking him why i was feeling this invisible pain. he always answered with a warm embrace that rocked me to sleep. i am still lucky. now i know the "crisis" i was feeling then. i called it my crisis and i talked about it to everyone i was close to like my bestfriend, geno, prof, phillip, jev... but they nver seem to understand. some of them even said that they felt the same way -- that pointless, empty life. i don't know. maybe they really did. but now i know what it it. that one is called disassociation. you just feel so empty like a walking hollow shell, watching the whole world do their business and pass you by, never caring about you and the truth that your eyes offer. but like i said, i think mine was just mild. i don't cut, rarely starves myself, etc. unlike the others. but i think i know why. maybe because they don't see God the way i do. they didn't know God the way i met him. i feel so proud of myself.

although i admit that i could still feel these things from time to time, but it's not like before. i'll just have to search for something that could divert me. somehow, from the bottom of my heart, i think i am happy. i don't know, i just feel so complete. maybe i did find true love after all.

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2006-12-03T09:47:00.000+08:00

we thought...

i have again changed my lay-out. i instantly fell in love with this skin the first time i laid my eyes on it. it reflects me... in a way, i think this new skin shows the deeper side of me.

anyways, i have these pictures that really made me laugh, not because the picture shows that angelica panganiban is fat. wala lang natawa lang ako. try to find out why...

this is the outcome poster...

this is before the editing...

same with these pics below... chem em out...

hindi naman ako masamang tao. pero wala lang. natatawa ako eh. haha. :) i bet kayo rin. peace! ;p

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2006-11-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

made me laugh... haha :)

ok... i can't get into sleep. rarr. so i thought i'd just share these jokes i've just read. check em out..

Nakatakas si Erap, FVR at GMA sa mga terorista at nagtago sa mga sako sa isang farm...
Terorista1: Anong nakita mo dyan?
Terorista2: Mga sako lang.
Terorista1: Tingnan mo ang laman!
Sinipa ng terorista ang unang sako, "Meow", sabi ni FVR.
Terorista2: Pusa!
Sinipa ang pangalawang sako, "Aw aw!" sabi ni GMA.
Terorista2: Aso!
Sinipa ang ikatlong sako... Walang tunog kaya sinipa uli ito ng sinipa ng terorista. Dahil sa sakit ng sipa, napasigaw na si Erap. "Patatas!"

Bitoy: Dagul, bakit ang pandak mo?
Dagul: Kasi, bata pa lang ako, ulila na ako.
Bitoy: Anong kaugnayan nun sa pagiging pandak mo?
Dagul: Sira pala ulo mo! Wala ngang nagpalaki sa akin!

Husband: When I get mad at you, you never fight back. How do you control your anger?
Wife: I clean the toilet bowl.
Husband: How does that help?
Wife: I use your toothbrush.

Babae: Doc, kumusta na ang asawa ko?
Doc: Sorry ma'am. Mula ngayon, ikaw na ang magpapakain at magpapaligo sa kanya, kasi putol na ang kanyang mga kamay at paa.
Babae: Hah?! Hindi nga?!
Doc: Hehehe! Ninerbyos ka ano? Joke lang! Patay na sya!

ok, the last one i admit is actually corny. pero ntwa ko.. haha! can you imagine a real doctor saying that?? haha. :) ok, baduy na ko. i'll try to get some sleep nlang. good night! :)